Bouncy n brave ole me....
Wooooohooooooo LJ's back - I was starting to get withdrawal symptoms. Amazing how quickly I've become almost reliant on being able to write down my daily thoughts, feelings and happenings. Still, it did spare you all from another "I'm down in the dumps" post I had written on Friday night and then couldn't post 'cause this had gone boobs-upwards!
Some of the post I had written was about my own lack of confidence and how I wished I'd had the guts to say something to someone. Invite them round for a coffee - yep that simple yet I failed miserably. Kicked myself severely and repeatedly. The thing is, this house is such a state I hate anyone seeing it, I mean REALLY hate the thought of people seeing what a dump I live in. I'm ashamed of it :-(
Today - well it's been a good day. A very good day. Spent an hour and a half in Nott'm getting some new boots wrapped inside trips round Hucknall on the Connect bus with MrP (I lost count of the number)! The company, the laughs, the discussions, the bitching sessions, the general chatter - I've still got the warm and fuzzies *insert stupid grin here* Anyhoo, I came out with the coffee invite - it fell out of my mouth before my brain had time to argue and stop it.
I now can't quite believe it! It's one thing I find interacting with people on neutral territory or even online, but with all of my own insecurities this has been a monumental leap. For tonight at least everything seems a little more ok with the world. Well with my teeny tiny part at least.
Some of the post I had written was about my own lack of confidence and how I wished I'd had the guts to say something to someone. Invite them round for a coffee - yep that simple yet I failed miserably. Kicked myself severely and repeatedly. The thing is, this house is such a state I hate anyone seeing it, I mean REALLY hate the thought of people seeing what a dump I live in. I'm ashamed of it :-(
Today - well it's been a good day. A very good day. Spent an hour and a half in Nott'm getting some new boots wrapped inside trips round Hucknall on the Connect bus with MrP (I lost count of the number)! The company, the laughs, the discussions, the bitching sessions, the general chatter - I've still got the warm and fuzzies *insert stupid grin here* Anyhoo, I came out with the coffee invite - it fell out of my mouth before my brain had time to argue and stop it.
I now can't quite believe it! It's one thing I find interacting with people on neutral territory or even online, but with all of my own insecurities this has been a monumental leap. For tonight at least everything seems a little more ok with the world. Well with my teeny tiny part at least.