talk about confusion
i'm in the ensemble. woo! it's great, really, i swear i'm happy. i just can't help wish i was an angel though. yay to all my friends who made it!!
so, i'm all weird right now. ready? here we go- adjectives:
1) jealous- the angels
2) guilty- i have no right to be jealous. i'm in the show.
3) confused
4) sad- really really wanted to be an angel
5) ecstatic- i'm in
6) smitten- you know...
7) disappointed- in myself
8) surprised
9) depressed
10) excited
11) angry- at people who wanted a lead but got an angel and are complaining
12) anxious- tomorrow
13) miserable- #1,2,7
14) proud- of ALL my friends
15) stressed- behind in schoolwork like whoa
16) calm- breathing
17) forgotten- too focused on others lately. need to give myself some attention.
18) quiet- this is rare. it's because i'm thinking a lot and trying not to explode
19) relieved- all my apps are done, the list was posted
20) tense- see above
but you know what? anything goes is going to be so much fun! and since rehearsals don't really start until january, i supposedly have more time now. and i'm gonna see Rent yeeeah! that's exciting. so while much of the list contains words with negative connotations, that's just the intensity of a period of time, how i was feeling then. now it's better. i'm lucky. and i love you all.