Every thought catalyst reaction
I never really feel like updating but its funny when someone says something and then is like "oh yeah I read about that in your livejournal" so for those kids and the people who I don’t get to see very much but care about me and read my journal just to see what’s up , I try to keep this thing going.
The other day my neighbor had a stroke. Well we thought it was a stroke. Turns out it was a busted blood vessel in his brain. That’s some serious business. I guess you are, or can be born with those, and then you’re like a ticking bomb. One day out of nowhere it just explodes. I mean think about that. He was just in his front yard raking some leaves and now he's paralyzed. Forever.
So Halloween came and went. I don’t think that I ever went trick or treating, or got ready and took the time to sit and think that it would be my last time for real trick or treating. That’s a little upsetting. I mean I can still go but i wont be all little. It just wont be the same and people will try and cheat me out on candy because they just think I’m lame. It’d just be more of a joke anyhow. I mean its not the fact that i can't go door to door dressed up obnoxiously screaming 'trick or treat' its more the growing up thing in general and letting go of some childish things.
This along with lots of other things are making me realize how much i am really growing up . Things are getting away from me quicker than i expected. I hear things like this all the time from people or especially adults but the realization of it is such a totally different aspect then just hearing it. I was cleaning my room the other day. My room hasn't been this clean in ages. It took me hours... Not just the cleaning but i literally went through basically everything that is to my name. Some of it was good some was bad. It was weird seeing old papers I wrote, letters, and pictures. A lot of them i threw away which was a good thing. Dude I had to get rid of my ice skates too. They so don't fit. Ill have to buy some new ones.
Speaking of skating and growing up reminds me. Alyssa came over and we decided to go to landslide just like we used to. While my expectations of a worthy show were low in the first place so I wasn't too disappointed, it was alright. It was just one of those lets go one more time things. It was an alright time. Alright. I was just wondering if i could use alright one more time.
Another thing, I’m realizing how much my opinions are changing and how just generally different i am. This is why i wouldn't get a tattoo anytime soon. I can't even decide on a hair color. While i am a serious person and when it comes to serious stuff I don’t change my mind, but as much as I see new clothes or styles that I like, I don’t think i would be literally willing to commit in ink that i will be pleased with a certain picture of design for life. Why am i talking about tattoos? I don’t know. Just the point that my thoughts are changing. The more I’m changing the more I realize too how so many people aren’t. Like its weird now listening to people and watching them. So many times i think that would've been so funny, or so sweet - in 7th grade.
A lot of times I think of my old friends too. And how i miss them. And it’s not that they're gone. We could hang out whenever i feel like giving them a call it’s just that i miss who they used to be. It sucks when people seem to change for the worse. Its just another thing thinking that a lot of things are so different and it’s not that i mind it’s just that its out of my control, the fact that things will never be the same.
I started drivers training. This is a FINALLY. I want it to be over quick though. Additional two hours to my day of school doesn't really please me. Although, my teacher is the man. Most all of you have had him.
Today i heard someone in an argument then one in all seriousness goes " fine burger king, have it your way." that was funny. This entry is the longest in my livejournal lifetime. Maybe I won't delete it. I would put it behind some sort of cut but its not working for me so sorry kids. I wonder if anyone will actually read this whole thing. It’s likely that I won’t ha.
The other day my neighbor had a stroke. Well we thought it was a stroke. Turns out it was a busted blood vessel in his brain. That’s some serious business. I guess you are, or can be born with those, and then you’re like a ticking bomb. One day out of nowhere it just explodes. I mean think about that. He was just in his front yard raking some leaves and now he's paralyzed. Forever.
So Halloween came and went. I don’t think that I ever went trick or treating, or got ready and took the time to sit and think that it would be my last time for real trick or treating. That’s a little upsetting. I mean I can still go but i wont be all little. It just wont be the same and people will try and cheat me out on candy because they just think I’m lame. It’d just be more of a joke anyhow. I mean its not the fact that i can't go door to door dressed up obnoxiously screaming 'trick or treat' its more the growing up thing in general and letting go of some childish things.
This along with lots of other things are making me realize how much i am really growing up . Things are getting away from me quicker than i expected. I hear things like this all the time from people or especially adults but the realization of it is such a totally different aspect then just hearing it. I was cleaning my room the other day. My room hasn't been this clean in ages. It took me hours... Not just the cleaning but i literally went through basically everything that is to my name. Some of it was good some was bad. It was weird seeing old papers I wrote, letters, and pictures. A lot of them i threw away which was a good thing. Dude I had to get rid of my ice skates too. They so don't fit. Ill have to buy some new ones.
Speaking of skating and growing up reminds me. Alyssa came over and we decided to go to landslide just like we used to. While my expectations of a worthy show were low in the first place so I wasn't too disappointed, it was alright. It was just one of those lets go one more time things. It was an alright time. Alright. I was just wondering if i could use alright one more time.
Another thing, I’m realizing how much my opinions are changing and how just generally different i am. This is why i wouldn't get a tattoo anytime soon. I can't even decide on a hair color. While i am a serious person and when it comes to serious stuff I don’t change my mind, but as much as I see new clothes or styles that I like, I don’t think i would be literally willing to commit in ink that i will be pleased with a certain picture of design for life. Why am i talking about tattoos? I don’t know. Just the point that my thoughts are changing. The more I’m changing the more I realize too how so many people aren’t. Like its weird now listening to people and watching them. So many times i think that would've been so funny, or so sweet - in 7th grade.
A lot of times I think of my old friends too. And how i miss them. And it’s not that they're gone. We could hang out whenever i feel like giving them a call it’s just that i miss who they used to be. It sucks when people seem to change for the worse. Its just another thing thinking that a lot of things are so different and it’s not that i mind it’s just that its out of my control, the fact that things will never be the same.
I started drivers training. This is a FINALLY. I want it to be over quick though. Additional two hours to my day of school doesn't really please me. Although, my teacher is the man. Most all of you have had him.
Today i heard someone in an argument then one in all seriousness goes " fine burger king, have it your way." that was funny. This entry is the longest in my livejournal lifetime. Maybe I won't delete it. I would put it behind some sort of cut but its not working for me so sorry kids. I wonder if anyone will actually read this whole thing. It’s likely that I won’t ha.