Difficult Conversations
You know those difficult conversations you have to have?
The ones that all couples come to bear.
Because you love them and you want it to work, you say the hard things.
I often wonder if I am not tactful or loving enough when I say it.
But then I think, it's not easy hearing things that aren't so pleasant from people that you love. There isn't a nice way to say it or a tactful way to say it.
I am not perfect.
I am not "normal."
Whatever that means.
I am just a fucked up girl like everyone else in the world. And I've never genuinely wanted to save anyone else, I couldn't save myself.
But I love this man, more than anything....and I want him to be the best version of himself...and I find myself wanting to know him more...I want to know what he loves, what makes him tick, what makes him cry....I discover every day there is something new about him that I didn't know...something that was made new.
It's hard being apart and saying the things that I have said...and they've come from a place of love...and from an attempt to tear down some walls to bring us closer together as a married couple but also to build boundaries between our seperate identites so we have more to offer in our marriage.
God, does that make sense to anyone out there?
Pht. I don't care.
I know what I am saying
Anyway....H2O anyone?
"I see your true colors; that's why I love you."