Eh well ya know...

[rachelle6485]

well today came and went. came up here to my moms house, but not before east broadway stuck a train in my travel path...fuckin asshole. i was going to drive around the eastside, but when i got tired of sitting waiting for that train, i was hot and just wanted to get to my moms house where there was AC!!! stayed at sues yet again last night, and cory came over as we ordered pizza. it was really nice to hang out with him again...just the 3 of us. we ate and watched friends for about 2 hours...then he left and sue and i took our loopy asses to bed. well i did...i think i fell asleep while u were talking...sorry sue. i needed it from the sleep i lost the night before from the crying and gettin up at 930 to go to Hell...AKA Panera...ugh. saturday was a good time, but sucked HxC after the bar closed. only because we went to Big Boy and rob says "no boyfriend tonight?"...ouch, that made me realize that where i was sitting was where i sat the last time him and i were there :(. then i walk outside only to see a buick regal...just like his but brown...sitting there eyeing me. oh man, i was done for. i was ok until we got back to sues and she hugged me and i lost it. i cant deal with this. i dont want to, and i shouldnt be. there were things that we did that we shouldnt of, but dan and i could of worked on those things. but he took off. cant get over that fact...i was giving and he wasnt giving back. of course the friends episode we watched last night was the one where ross and rachel are on a break (so ross thought) and they end up breaking up for good, and ross keeps saying "rachel im sorry...i feel awful..." yeah i heard that too...but if ya feel so bad then whats the point in doing it.

here i am, right back where i started. i dont feel too good right now, maybe its because i havent eaten right in a couple weeks and im suffering from a god damn dry spell. im falling apart. help me.