Open-Eyed and Blank-Minded
Staring at a blinking cursor bar is almost hypnotic when wondering what to compose. I’ve gazed open-eyed and blank-minded at the screen for nearly 5 minutes, and it looks as if this wonderment of mine is all that has spilled out. I must admit feeling apprehensive to start writing again, and I’ve cast myself as such a liar when I’ve repeatedly claimed to myself, “I’m going to keep this writing gig going.” Well, broken promises are nothing new to me. It’s 2005, in the first weeks of August, and my last scribble of an entry falls upon last year. The gap seems too much, but for me, time flew by, or rather squeezed by. It was such a busy first half year that it’s hard to keep straight the gatherings, events, and days on campus where I tucked myself into a corner with my nose in a textbook.
Alas! My final school day concluded last Thursday, and it truly hasn’t sunken in that I’m free of exams and my notebook of random assignments. I’m sitting here wondering where to begin. I read Harry Potter’s first 3 (oh yes, I’m somewhat behind) and now I’m rereading The Da Vinci Code, which I’m finding to be quite brilliant all over again. Besides reading my hours away, I feel that maintaining this journal once again would be simply divine. I am not going to make any promises, but with only work now as my supreme commitment, I’m looking forward to tackling a journal, as humdrum as mine might be.
I’m starting my first day of work this afternoon. Since I’ve never been one to share the specifics of my life, let me just say that I’m nervously excited. If anything, it will be a place to learn and discover new things about myself. Hopefully, a bit of fun will be incorporated in the job description as well.
For now, I think thawing a few frozen blueberries to snack on and settling down with Dan Brown’s masterpiece is just what I need…
Alas! My final school day concluded last Thursday, and it truly hasn’t sunken in that I’m free of exams and my notebook of random assignments. I’m sitting here wondering where to begin. I read Harry Potter’s first 3 (oh yes, I’m somewhat behind) and now I’m rereading The Da Vinci Code, which I’m finding to be quite brilliant all over again. Besides reading my hours away, I feel that maintaining this journal once again would be simply divine. I am not going to make any promises, but with only work now as my supreme commitment, I’m looking forward to tackling a journal, as humdrum as mine might be.
I’m starting my first day of work this afternoon. Since I’ve never been one to share the specifics of my life, let me just say that I’m nervously excited. If anything, it will be a place to learn and discover new things about myself. Hopefully, a bit of fun will be incorporated in the job description as well.
For now, I think thawing a few frozen blueberries to snack on and settling down with Dan Brown’s masterpiece is just what I need…