Wife, Mother, Christian
I feel very committed to making sure I'm there basically 24/7 for my daughter, and I do my best to take care of my husband. But sometimes I wonder and worry over where I'm putting my priorities and if they're all in the right places. I know that in serving my family, I'm serving God. But I know, also, that serving God doesn't end with serving my family. I feel very happy doing laundry and preparing meals and sweeping floors for my family. I do feel like I am doing something worthwhile on this earth. But I constantly feel a restlessness at the same time, a pull to do something more to be a shining light for Christ and a servant to the world. I want to touch people's lives and be a shelter for those who suffer. I want to feed the hungry and comfort the hurting. I want to transform the shape of this culture we live in. I want it to be full of love and compassion and a willing, unified spirit to make sacrifices for the sake of Christ. But I feel like I don't know how to do it. It sounds idiotic, but it's true. It seems like it should be simple. But I feel directionless. I feel full of desire but blank when it comes to ideas of how to practically do any of this. And sometimes I feel like my personality gets in the way of my ability of minister. I tend to be shy & timid. I could learn a lot from my husband who tends to find & take advantage of ministry opportunities everywhere. What can I do? How can I show Christ's love to those who need to see it most? I know the answer could be simple and hard at the same time. I know it could be something as small as inviting a stranger to share a meal with us. But I guess the hard part is that sometimes we have to seek the needy; we can't just let them find their way to us. After all, God sought us out. I just want to be strong enough to be like Christ to the world, but I feel like a wimp. Build me up with your prayers so that I can do my part to usher in the kingdom. It's not easy for me to make posts like this, but there you have it.