some sort of limbo?
Justin said it best yesterday when he said, "I feel like I'm in some sort of limbo here." In reference to being in the city right now and not being in Weatherford, but I think I feel that way more than anyone could imagine. Nothing feels quite right here. I've been sleeping all of the time, which is nice, but I never get anything done. I've seen Mike and Maria since I've been back but that is all since I haven't managed to try to catch up with everyone else who lives here that I pretty much left behing for the last 2 and a half years. I guess I feel embarrassed that I wasn't able to stay in contact with hundreds of friends here while doing what I had to do in school. I probably shouldn't feel that way but pretty much I don't want to be the asshole that magically comes around when everyone has great new years parties going on after not talking to anyone for years. This new years is gong to be crap at this rate I'm pretty sure. I was going to go to Dallas, but that whole trip just pretty much fell through and I started having second thoughts about the house party there(b/c people are probably going to be doing stuff there that I don't want to be around). So that trip got pretty much cancelled. Maria has to work until 8:30pm and then she wants to go out to a club with Adam, but I am just not ready to go to OKC clubs yet.. ha ha.. Especially on New Years when every idiot on earth is out and acting retarded and driving drunk(like I would have to as well since I live in back out in Choctaw). Noone else is sure whats going on yet. So I have a feeling I am going to be staying home this New Years. Oh well. I did have an invite to a party at my uncle's house down the street where they are preparing 3 probably 20 pound bags of hot wings and have lots to drink. I might do that since its close to home and it's at least some people that I know and it would be safe at least. Who knows. The morning is early. ha ha. If I don't go back to sleep, I might not even make it to midnight. ha ha..
So the Dish guy is supposed to come back with a drill today and properly run my coax through the wall instead of through my window how it is currently. Mom is going to the continuation of the family reunion this afternoon. I feel weird about that whole thing seeing as a member of that side of the family told us that we weren't family anymore after my grandpa died when I was a kid. So I haven't seen them in about 22 years up until yesterday. I'm probably going to avoid going today at all costs. Monday mom is going to make some good food so we can chow down and watch the OU game. That will be cool. Then Tuesday I need to try to get into the Orthodontist's office so that he can fix the rubberband that I broke at Christmas. Thursday I start my rotations which shouldn't be bad. I talked to my preceptor this week and he was really nice. He said it is like a small retail pharmacy and they are slow so I should bring something to do in my spare time. I get to dress casually and I don't have to wear my lab coat which is nice. I told him about my appointment for braces and he said to not worry about it. Our hours are 8-5 with an hour lunch break. Should be easy as can be. Other than that, I am cutting it close on my cell phone minutes, so I am trying to stay off the phone on weekdays until 9:00pm. I wish I could upgrade my cell and get a new phone, but apparently they only give upgrades every 2 years now, so I am SOL until 4-27. My bookcase fell apart the other day(two shelves fell down) so I am waiting after the Dish is done being installed so I have floor space to lay the thing down and fix it.. good fun.. ha ha.. I have a new monitor which is a 17 inch bad boy that I love!! Ha ha.. I am so ghetto I have never had a monitor this big! Well, I guess I am going to lay back down and try to go back to sleeeeeeeep.
If anyone knows of anything good going on tonight for New Years Eve, then let me know!!
So the Dish guy is supposed to come back with a drill today and properly run my coax through the wall instead of through my window how it is currently. Mom is going to the continuation of the family reunion this afternoon. I feel weird about that whole thing seeing as a member of that side of the family told us that we weren't family anymore after my grandpa died when I was a kid. So I haven't seen them in about 22 years up until yesterday. I'm probably going to avoid going today at all costs. Monday mom is going to make some good food so we can chow down and watch the OU game. That will be cool. Then Tuesday I need to try to get into the Orthodontist's office so that he can fix the rubberband that I broke at Christmas. Thursday I start my rotations which shouldn't be bad. I talked to my preceptor this week and he was really nice. He said it is like a small retail pharmacy and they are slow so I should bring something to do in my spare time. I get to dress casually and I don't have to wear my lab coat which is nice. I told him about my appointment for braces and he said to not worry about it. Our hours are 8-5 with an hour lunch break. Should be easy as can be. Other than that, I am cutting it close on my cell phone minutes, so I am trying to stay off the phone on weekdays until 9:00pm. I wish I could upgrade my cell and get a new phone, but apparently they only give upgrades every 2 years now, so I am SOL until 4-27. My bookcase fell apart the other day(two shelves fell down) so I am waiting after the Dish is done being installed so I have floor space to lay the thing down and fix it.. good fun.. ha ha.. I have a new monitor which is a 17 inch bad boy that I love!! Ha ha.. I am so ghetto I have never had a monitor this big! Well, I guess I am going to lay back down and try to go back to sleeeeeeeep.
If anyone knows of anything good going on tonight for New Years Eve, then let me know!!