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[rachel_pants]

I've never felt so alone. This three year chunk has been a real mystery.

I hate Tallahassee. I hate living in a college town.

I hate what beer can do to people. Especially what it does to their families. I can't even look at beer tonight.

I have no one to share things with. SO many people tell me I'm "weird" or "nuts" when I say things I believe or things that I think about. Even people that I consider close to me.

Sometimes I'm okay with that. Sometimes it gets old.

I have a hard time believing that I am meant to be in all this right now. Am I in the wrong place? What the hell am I doing wrong?

"It's hard to be a leader amongst a bunch of followers."
I wish Mike lived here. He's one of the only people I've ever met who REALLY gets me.

A person can only take so much. I don't see whats so wrong with being defeated for once.

I'm tired. Exhausted. Lonely. Inspired. Desperate. Hopeful. Scared.

I know it'll be worth it, when its all said and done.

Sorry I only use livejournal when I'm either extremely happy or extremely down. I swear I'm not bipolar.