life life life
yeah. im still depressed. i have an appointment for the 18th. Things hit rock bottem tonight with me and my mom. She accused me of being high last night when i wasnt. that offened me so much. i cried hysterically for an hour straight. ive never ever saw my eyes as swollen as they are tonight. it so crazy. the shit me and my mom talked about to night started to make sense. im starting to see some parts of my problem(s). and not just mentally, im physically sick too. its probably because of lack of sleep and stress, but idk...
other then that.. friday i went to the football game with tigg and dem and last night i worked until 7 then went to the haunted hayride with everyone and their mother. then was ryans party...
i think i should really stop going to parties. when i go, i can never just go there and have fun. something always happens. part of it could be because im drunk. but seriously... who cares what i do. i obviously dont so you shouldnt either. and if you witness or hear somthing about me dont go around telling everyone. its not that big of a deal. and dont assume things either. thats everyones problem. they assume too much shit. if you confront me and ask me if what i did {or didnt} really happend ill tell you the straight out truth. i have no reason to lie like evreyone else does. like it really upsets me. no one can keep to themselves.. like me. if i saw or heard somthing im not gunna go around telling everyone like its my job. like seriously it doesnt make you look cool. and you shouldnt have any reason to want me look bad...and if you do, thats your problem. but you must not know me if you would want to do that. im really not a bad person. so what if i do stuff that you dont agree to. youre not me. you dont know me or understand me. why dont you ask me why i do the stuff i do and what i take chances like i do and maybe you understand me.
this world.. people... theyre so fucked up. i dont want to be one of them....
and im not one of them.
so yeah... we got back to morgans at like 430. and i slept alone in Gabe's room.. yess! alonee!
i can never forget the small things
other then that.. friday i went to the football game with tigg and dem and last night i worked until 7 then went to the haunted hayride with everyone and their mother. then was ryans party...
i think i should really stop going to parties. when i go, i can never just go there and have fun. something always happens. part of it could be because im drunk. but seriously... who cares what i do. i obviously dont so you shouldnt either. and if you witness or hear somthing about me dont go around telling everyone. its not that big of a deal. and dont assume things either. thats everyones problem. they assume too much shit. if you confront me and ask me if what i did {or didnt} really happend ill tell you the straight out truth. i have no reason to lie like evreyone else does. like it really upsets me. no one can keep to themselves.. like me. if i saw or heard somthing im not gunna go around telling everyone like its my job. like seriously it doesnt make you look cool. and you shouldnt have any reason to want me look bad...and if you do, thats your problem. but you must not know me if you would want to do that. im really not a bad person. so what if i do stuff that you dont agree to. youre not me. you dont know me or understand me. why dont you ask me why i do the stuff i do and what i take chances like i do and maybe you understand me.
this world.. people... theyre so fucked up. i dont want to be one of them....
and im not one of them.
so yeah... we got back to morgans at like 430. and i slept alone in Gabe's room.. yess! alonee!
i can never forget the small things