bummer

[rachel_00x]

Wow, I am rather bummed out. I was sooo looking forward to going to Pace, I had been looking forward to going for like over a month. And the main thing I was looking forward to was colorguard practice and hoping to surprise everyone, I mean I guess it's stupid, I don't know what I expected, but I expected alot more than what I got, I walked in and no one really said anything they just looked at me a few people were like "Hey Rachel" just like oh its Rachel again, I mean I understand it's practice but that's not what got me, when i walked in, my old instructor, Mrs. B, who was literally like a 2nd mother to me, who offered for me to live with her so i didn't have to move, she waved at me...waved...then i went to hug her all she had to say was "nice to see you again" i saw her after practice too, that's all she said again. OUCH. You just don't know. I wanted to cry. I could barely stay in the gymnasium during their 3 hour practice. People had told me that Mrs. B had changed but i just couldn't beleive that, i couldn't and i wouldn't. It seemed like there was only a handful of people who actually cared. It's amazing to see who your real friends are now days. When I got back to Jills i was literally in tears. I don't know what I had expected, but it most definately was NOT that, I guess i just want to much? I don't know...but I am home now. And I already miss Jill, her BF is a sweetie, I like him, he brought me a strawberry-banana milkshake from sonic when i was sick b/c he works there, and he brough her ice cream also, he has my approval, haha.

Dad got a new truck. He got a grey 2005 4WD Explorer Sport Trac. It is nice. He always gets new vehicles for the heck of it. Hmph. Anyway Dustin is coming home today. I hopefully get to see him tonight, I havent seen him in like a week. Yay, anyway I guess that's all.

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--Rach