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geez, this has been quite the day. i've been thinking about my major and how confused i am. art education...hmmm. i was asking myself why i want to go in that direction. and i couldn't really think of anything. i like little kids, but do i really want to run a classroom? yes, the hours are great, but is that what i want to do? then it hit me. i think the only reason i wanted to switch to art education is that i am afraid to apply for the BFA program. Maybe I think if I don't make it then I'm not any good. Maybe I think I'll feel like a failure. But why do I have to be so negative. There is a chance that I CAN do this. Why should I choose a different major just because I am afraid? If I fail, at least I tried. And I think I'm nervous because I don't really know how to put a portfolio together. Noone has ever shown me and I've never needed one before. But I am sure I can get a student or someone to help me. I really think I should try. If I don't make it, I'll worry about that then. I also think I am afraid of the classes. They are really challenging. But when I think about it, every time I think I won't be able to do a good job, I pull it off. When I have to do a project, I never think i'll be able to come up with something creative. But then I do. I need to just trust that I have it in me. I need to have more faith in myself. So I guess I am an art major once again.