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So I've noticed something...The older I get the less patients I have. Sometimes I feel like life just burns people out. Its weird...I used to have all of these big impossible dreams...like that I would go to college meet the man of my dreams, get married, have kids and a successful job. I've given up on all of those dreams except for the job part. I feel like I will never have that special someone, but I can always throw myself into work. Its weird because as a kid I didn't mind being alone, I didn't worry that I didn't have enough friends or that I would never meet prince charming. I was just happy to sit and play with my dolls...well now I'm not so happy just sitting there alone. I will read a book or work on stuff, but its not as much fun as it used to be. I don't love to be alone anymore...sometimes I even feel alone when I'm surrounded by people like when I was an RA I was surrounded by people all the time and most of the time I'd never felt more alone. Maybe life just makes us jaded and we no longer want what we have always wanted because we give. Our parents were wrong...we can't get everything we want just by trying.