who I am
Hello everyone my name is Garrett,
I like to play guitar. People find it sexy/interesting ect. well I really don't give a shit what you think. I play guitar for my own enjoyment and I won't stop playing because I wouldn't be myself without being able to write music....
I'm a very emotional person but I tend to hide everything because I'm scared of setting myself up for tragedy. I can handle any sort of physical pain but when it comes to girls it can be sooo painful i don't know how I survive.
I cut myself... yes, garrett, the one man who seems like an emotional rock, cuts himself. There is no clearer way to establish whether u are alive or not. The reason I act so strong is because I just want to help people through thier problems and I'm sure they aren't going to listen to some emotionally weak cutter about relationship advice. I also act this way because I dont want to let anyone know how much i really care about them because I'm scared it will only make them uncomfortable cuz a lot of people aren't ready for that kind of love. It has happened to me a few times where I gave my heart away only to be splattered on the floor and then urinated on.
I am my own worst enemy. I wish I was retarded or something because that would be the only way to truely be happy for the rest of my life. People always say omg garrett ur like so smart and talented and ur really lucky blah blah blah. well fuck it.... i want to be a retard. I want to be the creepy guy at the bar who is the only one dancing because he doesnt give a shit what anyone thinks and all he knows is that he likes the music that is being played and he wants to dance because it's fun and he doesnt give a shit whether anyone dances with him or not.
I know what will make me happy for the time being and I guess since i cant pretend to be a retard, then all I can do is pursue what makes me happy.
I wish the world just understood itslef. I know exactly why everyone does the harm they do to eachother and despite everything people are still good at heart.I just wish people were as forgiving and understanding as me. You can tell me u killed someone and I'll try to consider ur point of view.
I'm not the closed minded cynical garrett anymore.... a lot of u never knew that garrett but for those of u who did... he's gone. The real garrett is now prevailent. He never really left he just got lost for a little bit. The extremely HONEST and understanding Garrett is here. The garrett that is willing to talk to u about absolutely anything to help solve ur problems is here.
I'd just like to say thank you to all of the people who gave me a chance and confided in me with thier inner most secrets/problems. I'd like to know that I made a difference in someone's life... that would make me "happy" for quite some time. All I have is love now and I just want to help people through their problems as well.
Love isn't hard to accept is it? I gave it a chance and it made me the happiest man on earth. I'm still extremely greatfull for that and I hope to keep experiencing love as long as I live.
I'd like to think that anyone in the world... no matter how grumpy or hatefull, would be able to accept love eventually and enjoy it. And even if they dont want to accept it... it can never hurt someone. as long as I know I haven't hurt anyone then I think I may be "happy". Love... it's all u really need
I like to play guitar. People find it sexy/interesting ect. well I really don't give a shit what you think. I play guitar for my own enjoyment and I won't stop playing because I wouldn't be myself without being able to write music....
I'm a very emotional person but I tend to hide everything because I'm scared of setting myself up for tragedy. I can handle any sort of physical pain but when it comes to girls it can be sooo painful i don't know how I survive.
I cut myself... yes, garrett, the one man who seems like an emotional rock, cuts himself. There is no clearer way to establish whether u are alive or not. The reason I act so strong is because I just want to help people through thier problems and I'm sure they aren't going to listen to some emotionally weak cutter about relationship advice. I also act this way because I dont want to let anyone know how much i really care about them because I'm scared it will only make them uncomfortable cuz a lot of people aren't ready for that kind of love. It has happened to me a few times where I gave my heart away only to be splattered on the floor and then urinated on.
I am my own worst enemy. I wish I was retarded or something because that would be the only way to truely be happy for the rest of my life. People always say omg garrett ur like so smart and talented and ur really lucky blah blah blah. well fuck it.... i want to be a retard. I want to be the creepy guy at the bar who is the only one dancing because he doesnt give a shit what anyone thinks and all he knows is that he likes the music that is being played and he wants to dance because it's fun and he doesnt give a shit whether anyone dances with him or not.
I know what will make me happy for the time being and I guess since i cant pretend to be a retard, then all I can do is pursue what makes me happy.
I wish the world just understood itslef. I know exactly why everyone does the harm they do to eachother and despite everything people are still good at heart.I just wish people were as forgiving and understanding as me. You can tell me u killed someone and I'll try to consider ur point of view.
I'm not the closed minded cynical garrett anymore.... a lot of u never knew that garrett but for those of u who did... he's gone. The real garrett is now prevailent. He never really left he just got lost for a little bit. The extremely HONEST and understanding Garrett is here. The garrett that is willing to talk to u about absolutely anything to help solve ur problems is here.
I'd just like to say thank you to all of the people who gave me a chance and confided in me with thier inner most secrets/problems. I'd like to know that I made a difference in someone's life... that would make me "happy" for quite some time. All I have is love now and I just want to help people through their problems as well.
Love isn't hard to accept is it? I gave it a chance and it made me the happiest man on earth. I'm still extremely greatfull for that and I hope to keep experiencing love as long as I live.
I'd like to think that anyone in the world... no matter how grumpy or hatefull, would be able to accept love eventually and enjoy it. And even if they dont want to accept it... it can never hurt someone. as long as I know I haven't hurt anyone then I think I may be "happy". Love... it's all u really need