I'm a mess, girl for sure
SO yesterday was the first of the month and I really fucked it up so I guess October is going to just rule for me. Everything has been taken out of my room, I have a headache, I can't find anything that belongs to me, I think it's a caffeine headache, I wonder where my shirt drawer went, I need to stop drinking so much coffee. I need milk.
I want to get the hell out of Georgia. I'm so sick of all of this drama bullshit. I hope I never see his face again, but I know that won't happen. Whenever you swear someone off, you run into them until finally you realize they're not that bad and maybe you do care for them like you once did. Then you never see them again. It's fucked up. Maybe that's just my great luck that I always have. Yo no se.
So I need to start to be a good child again. My parents keep looking at me like I'm harboring some deep secret. Like being addicted to crack or carrying some 40 year old mans love child. Well news to them: I'm not. I'm actually internally conflicted over things that my mother is making me do. Like take everything out of my room and be living in chaos for a couple days.
I'm really emotional right now. I feel so bad for eveyrhthing i've done but I wouldn't take it back for the world. I dont know why I changed but right now i'm sorry that I did. Maybe if I hadn't right now my life would be extremely different. I wouldn't have to feel bad everything I see that I missed his calls. Now im stuck sitting here thinking about how I should've hung out with him today. I feel like an asshole and I just want to lay down and stop thinking about things that daily bring me down.
I want to get the hell out of Georgia. I'm so sick of all of this drama bullshit. I hope I never see his face again, but I know that won't happen. Whenever you swear someone off, you run into them until finally you realize they're not that bad and maybe you do care for them like you once did. Then you never see them again. It's fucked up. Maybe that's just my great luck that I always have. Yo no se.
So I need to start to be a good child again. My parents keep looking at me like I'm harboring some deep secret. Like being addicted to crack or carrying some 40 year old mans love child. Well news to them: I'm not. I'm actually internally conflicted over things that my mother is making me do. Like take everything out of my room and be living in chaos for a couple days.
I'm really emotional right now. I feel so bad for eveyrhthing i've done but I wouldn't take it back for the world. I dont know why I changed but right now i'm sorry that I did. Maybe if I hadn't right now my life would be extremely different. I wouldn't have to feel bad everything I see that I missed his calls. Now im stuck sitting here thinking about how I should've hung out with him today. I feel like an asshole and I just want to lay down and stop thinking about things that daily bring me down.