I Feel Like an Awkward Update... lol

[rachaeleigh]

Today I did a lot of thinking. Crazy, I know, considering I worked my freaking ass off today at work. My mind multitasks, though, so ya know. ANYWAYS. I was thinking about crazy stuff. Like, OK, there are some things that I like to do and partake in that some of my friends don't, and don't agree with. I don't think any of us need examples, but you know. Whatever. I think I know why I do some of the things I do. I think it's because I never got to go through a "rebellious" stage in my early teens... because up until August 20th of last year (the day I moved to Tuscaloosa), I pretty much raised my little sister, as well as my mom, pretty much. I've never felt like I was being RAISED, I was doing all the caretaking in the house and keeping up with everything. So I guess I'm going through that now? I'm not really rebelious, I just don't always act as "mature" as I should. I'm not immature, by any means, I don't think, but for example, I like to party. Yes. I have friends who would say that that's stupid, pointless, and I'm just giving in to peer pressure or some crap like that. I don't see it that way, though. I see it as enjoying myself and living the college life. I like drinking every now and then. I like smoking cigarettes. I know they're not good for me, I know. I'm fully aware of all this crap everyone is feeding me, but I like it because it's FUN to me. Hmm... I don't know what the point of this story is. I guess it's just that I'm tired of people judging me for the decisions I make. I know that sounds totally hypocritical... haha. But like, for example, I have a friend at work who doesn't agree with a lot of the stuff that I do, and I know that. But she never says anything to me about it, never tries to make me feel bad about it, and still is one of my really good friends. I love that about her...

I really don't know where I'm going with this. haha. I just felt like writing that down. I guess for my own reference or something. OK. Whatever. haha. I'm going to SLEEEEEP because I am so redonkulously tired that I'm just going to die. Yep. DIE.

MATT KNIGHTEN... you are 14 hours ahead of us. I bet you have the worst jetlag EVER. Poor thing. Glad to hear you made it over there safely, though!!!