The Re-Literatation of Rachael

[rachaeldoss]

After reading only two books last year, I made a promise to myself at the beginning of January that I would read one book a month this year.  I figure I ought to at least be able to manage one 300 or so page book a month for 12 months, or my literacy card should be revoked.  Besides, I have what I think constitutes a LITERAL shit ton of books on my

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[vforventure]

I was never into that whole dating and partying thing to begin with and didn't really have friends who were. (Thanks Oregon!) But I agree that there is a time and a place for that lifestyle and that a person needs to grow up at a certain point.

I love, love, love Augusten Burroughs. I've read all of his books and with the exception of Sellevision, I've loved them all. He and David Sedaris are two of my absolute favorites. There's just something about their insane families and childhoods that both appalls and intrigues me. Just a warning, A Wolf at the Table is really sad.

Audrey is to the point now where she knows she isn't talking like us and that for the most part we don't understand her. She gets frustrated a lot because of that. She's a really crazy kid right now. She's always running all over the place, getting into things, stealing things, taking stuff apart, trying to put random objects together. It's funny to watch her figure things out. She's really independent and has to do everything for herself.

She's only 15 months old so I don't really think she understand that we're having another baby. She might though, it's hard to tell. She got three baby dolls for Christmas (family members all thought she needed one to prepare). She's fascinated with my belly and we always tell her that her baby brother is in there, sometimes she kisses or hugs my belly after that. And when we hang out with my aunt I hold her little 6 month old foster girl to show Audrey that she'll be ok if I give another baby some attention. She gets a little mad though and ignores me for a while.

I'm due April 22nd and I'm totally terrified of going into labor since it didn't happen with Audrey. I wouldn't mind if Harrison decides to be just as stubborn as Audrey and I need to be induced, just so I'll know what to expect. I doubt I'll get that lucky. I'm sure this time my water will break while I'm in bed or out shopping or something. I'm just glad we're stopping with two. My hormones are out of control and I get sad thinking about only having two babies and when I see a tiny baby on tv or out in public my only thought is, "I want a baby!" Rationally, I know that two kids will be enough work and that if we only have two we'll be able to afford to give them more opportunities. But my hormones, irrational as they are, have me convinced that I need four babies.

[rachaeldoss]

LOL - When Lilah was a few days old, I was telling Ben, "I want TWELVE BABIES! BABIES ARE SO AWESOME!"

HA!

I totally understand the irrational desire for more and more babies.

[vforventure]

I'm so done though. At 7 weeks I had a threatened miscarriage and I'm pretty sure I have gestational diabetes this time. I failed the 1 hour test and my doctor's office just called because my doctor needs to discuss my results. Not generally something they do if it's good news. I'm pretty bummed, I was looking forward to a nice big box of chocolate for Valentine's Day. And I think I've got symphysis pubis dysfunction too, so it's just one thing after another. I don't want to go through another pregnancy! I don't even feel like finishing this one. If this were some other kind of project (like sewing a dress or scrapbooking) I'd just quit and leave it unfinished. But I can't, and I've only got about 11 weeks to go.