THIS IS A SUPER LONG ENTRY ABOUT BALLET. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!
i had my evaluation conference w/ ms young today. im repeating 6i (which is good). thank god for not getting b-tracked!
although i'm glad to stay in 6i, i really wish i could stay in newton with ms young. she is, hands down, the most brilliant teacher i've ever had. she never gave up on me or ignored me because of my body. Also, i love it how she doesn't just say "get over your leg," but will explain HOW to do it... "push with your back toes and support your left side and underbutt, etc." i think its really rare that teachers are able to tell you how to fix things, not just what you are doing wrong or how it should feel. She never ceases to amaze me with her wisdom, not just about dance but about life as well. she makes me feel good about myself, and i'm finally happy just being in class. I can focus and be productive, regardless of how well i'm doing. boston is going to be such a hassle, and there's no way ms. mitchell could compare even though she's also an amazing teacher.
so in my conference, she told be to keep working on my arms, not sickling my feet, and getting over my leg, especially when the leg is to the side. nothing new. she said some really nice things, too. she said she's really liked having me in class, that she really appreciated my hard work, and that ive done a lot of good work this year. she also complimented my ability to assimilate into whatever thing i'm dancing, and that i was the only choice for Grahn because of my 'fortitude.' Its kind of weird to hear these things from her because she doesn't give compliments like that during class, even though she always is very encouraging.
She told me that my body is always going to work against me, which i knew already. in an odd way, it was sort of good to hear her say that. Every year since 3i, my teachers have told me that i don't have the body, and that where i was at that time might be the limit of what my body would allow me to do. But now that i've finally come to terms with the fact that my body wasn't made to dance, hearing other people say so doesn't bother me. Instead, i feel better about myself. My accomplishments seem MORE valuable to me when i recognize what i've had to battle against. woohoo!
We also talked about the future. i told her that i was looking at colleges with dance programs or that are in cities, and that im looking to expand my dance experiences beyond just ballet. She liked that, and said that she hopes i don't stop dancing because im full of... i forget.
to summarize:
1. i am glad to i will be repeating 6i
2. i am sad i have to leave ms young
3. i am mad i will have to commute to boston everyday next year.
4. ballet is good now, but could potentially suck next year
things are so bittersweet...
although i'm glad to stay in 6i, i really wish i could stay in newton with ms young. she is, hands down, the most brilliant teacher i've ever had. she never gave up on me or ignored me because of my body. Also, i love it how she doesn't just say "get over your leg," but will explain HOW to do it... "push with your back toes and support your left side and underbutt, etc." i think its really rare that teachers are able to tell you how to fix things, not just what you are doing wrong or how it should feel. She never ceases to amaze me with her wisdom, not just about dance but about life as well. she makes me feel good about myself, and i'm finally happy just being in class. I can focus and be productive, regardless of how well i'm doing. boston is going to be such a hassle, and there's no way ms. mitchell could compare even though she's also an amazing teacher.
so in my conference, she told be to keep working on my arms, not sickling my feet, and getting over my leg, especially when the leg is to the side. nothing new. she said some really nice things, too. she said she's really liked having me in class, that she really appreciated my hard work, and that ive done a lot of good work this year. she also complimented my ability to assimilate into whatever thing i'm dancing, and that i was the only choice for Grahn because of my 'fortitude.' Its kind of weird to hear these things from her because she doesn't give compliments like that during class, even though she always is very encouraging.
She told me that my body is always going to work against me, which i knew already. in an odd way, it was sort of good to hear her say that. Every year since 3i, my teachers have told me that i don't have the body, and that where i was at that time might be the limit of what my body would allow me to do. But now that i've finally come to terms with the fact that my body wasn't made to dance, hearing other people say so doesn't bother me. Instead, i feel better about myself. My accomplishments seem MORE valuable to me when i recognize what i've had to battle against. woohoo!
We also talked about the future. i told her that i was looking at colleges with dance programs or that are in cities, and that im looking to expand my dance experiences beyond just ballet. She liked that, and said that she hopes i don't stop dancing because im full of... i forget.
to summarize:
1. i am glad to i will be repeating 6i
2. i am sad i have to leave ms young
3. i am mad i will have to commute to boston everyday next year.
4. ballet is good now, but could potentially suck next year
things are so bittersweet...