this is not ur dream, but u always believed in me...

[rach25173]

i seriously can say i just hate the entire world right now...as of last night i didnt think anything was wrong...and from the time i woke up this morning things just went downhill, first of all i woke up late and had no time at all, almost was late for school again, i get the first period where no one was talking to me...so i just brushed it off and pretended like nothing was wrong and sat there...this continued the rest of the day..and finally tonight i figured out the reason why...exactly the reasons why i usually rip up everything after i write it...
well...certain people know how extremely difficult things have been for me lately...im in love with someone and no one accepts it...these ppl have seen how bad ive been hurt over this...and yes, hurtful words can come out of it...nothing has been easy for me, i dont even know who i am nemore..i really dont...one day i feel like this then the next im happy and dont know why...i just dont know what to do with life nemore...they are covering it up to make it seem like nothin is wrong, they all still have each other..i can get thru it on my own im sure, its just easier if friends are gonna be there no matter what..ya know??..i cant count a time i havent ever been there for them, and if i havent been im sorry...like i have no feelings or something...things arent just gonna get better...i cant ever even be happy nemore...i gotta go...i cant talk about it nemore...
*surrounded by, a million ppl, i still feel alone..let me go home..*