I had an *EPIPHANY*
Dear WORLD!!
I had a very werid, yet eventful day. I learned a lot about myself...
When I woke up today, I had four sugar cookies, not one, not two, not three, but FOUR cookies! I mean, I went to bed last night thinking, "I need to just go on a diet..." Woke up and ate those damn cookies. They were taunting me.. It was as if they yelled, "EAT ME! WE ARE SOOO TASTY.. YUMMY!" Anyone that knows me knows that I struggle with my fad diets, workouts, body, anything to do with fitness, EVERYDAY... It is just an adversity I inevitably meet each day. I can not AVOID it.
Anyway...
For lunch I had PIZZA HUT. I had like half a pizza with my sister, Laura. Like, we chowed out. NO JOKE! Anyone who knows us, knows we EAT! It was horrible. I left not only feeling FULL, but about to PUKE.. I just eat until I can not possibly eat anymore. It is horrible.
For dinner I ate a bowl of ice cream, topped with M&M's... Then I finished it with a cup of ROOT BEER... Oh, and I had some left over Pizza. HAHA!
It was then that it dawned on me: "MY LIFE IS GOING TO END SO QUICKLY IF I DON'T QUIT ABUSING FOOD." Like, for real, I am addicted to all of these fatty, non-healthy foods. It is honestly scary and in no way HEALTY. I HAD MY EPIPHANY! "If I don't quit I could not only shorten my life because of clogged arteries, but also fail to accomplish things I have set out to do. I need to just go on a diet and face it. I can't keep waking up everday to the same shit.. 'Oh, I'll start my diet tomorrow. Just one more day of fatty foods.' " I knew then that I needed to talk to Nick about some things, but we haven't talked yet. I just know that he will support me. I mean... I have failed DIETS a million times, but I decided.. IT IS NOT A DIET.. It is simply EATING HEALTHY to better my life and other lives around me.
I must add that I am not FAT. I am tall and average. I mean, I lift a lot of weights.. I would say I am SPORTY.. But, I need to diet down. And that is not a bad thing. People are like, Rach, you are sooo PRETTY.. You are GREAT.. The truth is, I do not care. They make eating healthy a bad thing, but I want to set an example that eating healthy is helpful and worthwhile. I know I can reach my weight loss goals if I just stay focused.
"If there is a will, there is a way." And, I have that will.
Thanks for your support and understanding,
Rach
Ps- You guys rock my world!
EPIPHANY:
A comprehension or perception of reality by means of a sudden intuitive realization: “I experienced an epiphany, a spiritual flash that would change the way I viewed myself” (Frank Maier). Nick, I added this for you. *I LUV*
I had a very werid, yet eventful day. I learned a lot about myself...
When I woke up today, I had four sugar cookies, not one, not two, not three, but FOUR cookies! I mean, I went to bed last night thinking, "I need to just go on a diet..." Woke up and ate those damn cookies. They were taunting me.. It was as if they yelled, "EAT ME! WE ARE SOOO TASTY.. YUMMY!" Anyone that knows me knows that I struggle with my fad diets, workouts, body, anything to do with fitness, EVERYDAY... It is just an adversity I inevitably meet each day. I can not AVOID it.
Anyway...
For lunch I had PIZZA HUT. I had like half a pizza with my sister, Laura. Like, we chowed out. NO JOKE! Anyone who knows us, knows we EAT! It was horrible. I left not only feeling FULL, but about to PUKE.. I just eat until I can not possibly eat anymore. It is horrible.
For dinner I ate a bowl of ice cream, topped with M&M's... Then I finished it with a cup of ROOT BEER... Oh, and I had some left over Pizza. HAHA!
It was then that it dawned on me: "MY LIFE IS GOING TO END SO QUICKLY IF I DON'T QUIT ABUSING FOOD." Like, for real, I am addicted to all of these fatty, non-healthy foods. It is honestly scary and in no way HEALTY. I HAD MY EPIPHANY! "If I don't quit I could not only shorten my life because of clogged arteries, but also fail to accomplish things I have set out to do. I need to just go on a diet and face it. I can't keep waking up everday to the same shit.. 'Oh, I'll start my diet tomorrow. Just one more day of fatty foods.' " I knew then that I needed to talk to Nick about some things, but we haven't talked yet. I just know that he will support me. I mean... I have failed DIETS a million times, but I decided.. IT IS NOT A DIET.. It is simply EATING HEALTHY to better my life and other lives around me.
I must add that I am not FAT. I am tall and average. I mean, I lift a lot of weights.. I would say I am SPORTY.. But, I need to diet down. And that is not a bad thing. People are like, Rach, you are sooo PRETTY.. You are GREAT.. The truth is, I do not care. They make eating healthy a bad thing, but I want to set an example that eating healthy is helpful and worthwhile. I know I can reach my weight loss goals if I just stay focused.
"If there is a will, there is a way." And, I have that will.
Thanks for your support and understanding,
Rach
Ps- You guys rock my world!
EPIPHANY:
A comprehension or perception of reality by means of a sudden intuitive realization: “I experienced an epiphany, a spiritual flash that would change the way I viewed myself” (Frank Maier). Nick, I added this for you. *I LUV*