Why?
So I am sitting here listening to my new theme song, Rascall Flatts' "Bless the Broken Road", (it is an amazing song!), and watching Extreme Makeover Wedding Edition, lovely. I swear I am a hopeless romantic and cannot wait until I meet the person that Rascall Flatts is singing about (it is a song about going through heartache and eventually being led to the right person after being with the wrong ones). Ugh, I am so gonna cry in this dang show, it is so beautiful. I cannot wait until I find my "one" that I am going to fall head over heels for and love for over, and one who is going to feel the same for me. So now I am wondering why I keep finding the wrong people and staying with them even when they hurt me and I know that I deserve better than that. Hmm..I am a weird girl I guess, but I just want to see the best in them and really hate starting over and being single again and again. I mean yeah being single is great with all the freedom to hang out with whoever I want whenever, and I by no means am going to date someone just to not be single, but there are so many events in my life that I want to share with someone else. I mean, graduation is coming up and it would be so nice to share that with someone, and Eryn's wedding, that would be such a cool date. Oh well, I know it all happens for a reason and that I will one day meet the man of my dreams and because of my experiences love him even more than I could possibly imagine. Hey, who knows, maybe I have already met him and don't know him yet, only time shall tell. I am not trying to sound all sad for myself or anything, but I talked to Matt again tonight and am just trying to be his friend but am starting to realize it is so not worth it. Thinking of him just hurts me because I thought I could totally trust him and be safe with him and again I was wrong and now I don't think I ever knew him and that just bothers me. Oh well, live and learn. Ok, now I gotta get going, HW and bed are calling my name. Witty words of the day, "Deep down, I'm pretty superficial."-Ava Gardner