I am Working On Happy ....

[racerx7]

I have so Much .. I am a Really really a lucky guy ... I have someone to CALL at the end of the day ...I love what I do ... I am Artistic ... I have good friend's a loving Home ...really I want for Nothing ... But Lately .. I don't know what to say ~ I am less than Happy ~.. mY wife has a brilliant Career and Is rocking the house at work ... but our time grows less and less ... not only her fault really( mine is eating my head) and I suck for saying this .. but I envy her.. she is a Rising star in her Field and I am Fighting to keep the door open ... it's a ruff Biz.. I knew that going in ... but man It seems I can't Catch a Break these day's .
I really feel like shit for even writing it down ... but I wish I was doing half as well as she .. it has always been this way if I look back ... sometimes I am doing better than she ... and some times its the other way around but the last 2 yrs have really taken a lot of the fight out of me .. I am tired .. and there is no down time in Sight ... Fight or go down swinging
I am not bitching believe it or not ... at least I got a shot at fighting for it ( alot of my friends have no such option) but well the economy is kicking the shit out of my Industry just now ( not only mine I know) I am just having Problems being Creative and Tired at the same time ~ the Green eyes of jealousy look Look poorly on me~