Happy New Year! 2014
I've had this account for a long time now. I don't think I use it as much as I would like to, but when I do use it, I definitely feel it's because I need to get some things off my mind. First let's start off with the good: I've completed my BA in Philosophy (not sure if I wrote about that). I traveled to Vancouver Canada and lived there for 3 months. It was amazing, I loved the city. I went home for the holidays and saw family and friends, which was nice and enjoyable. I haven't played poker since Vancouver however, and I've started to switch my mindset away from poker for a long term plan. I've recently really gotten into effective altruism, and it makes me happy. I made some amazing friends in Vancouver that are interested in EA. I made a lot of progress with my website, and feel good about the direction my life is going. I think becoming an EA, and devoting my time to helping others is where I have found purpose in life. (I think it's very important to live for something). I'm in L.A. right now waiting for my flight to Australia. I'm going to Melbourne with Matt and Jeremy and I am really excited to go there. I think it will be a great time, and a great experience. I've also heard the girls are hot and like American men... :D.
I've learned a lot about myself this past year, and I feel like I am really beginning to grow as a person. One thing I know about myself is that if I have something on my mind, it affects all the other areas of my life. I can't let something go and it weighs down on me heavy.
I planned to tell some family about what happened with my cousin, but my Grandma ended up passing away when I came home, so it wasn't a good time to bring that up. I wanted to tell the Brumleves, but I kind of wussed out, and there really is no good time to explain something like that. I'm really not sure what to do in this situation, it's not something that has happened to anyone I know, and I feel alone on figuring it out. If I tell some people they may be able to give me ideas, but it's not easy. I think the best thing to do is to tell some people I really can trust and listen to what they say, and also potentially contact my Aunt Gail and tell her, since she will likely confront Daphne which might get something done? I'm not really sure what I want out of all of it. I guess just peace of mind for myself would be the goal. How I achieve that is the question. If I make a big scene out of it, it will cause more harm than good I believe, and I don't think contacting John-Paul will really give me an peace of mind unless he apologizes for what he did and assures me that he doesn't do anything like that anymore. That would be pretty reassuring. I'd like peace of mind, and I'd also like to know that it's not going on with some other innocent kid. Those are the two things I'd like to achieve. For gaining peace of mind, I think doing journal entries like this one really helps with that. Getting thoughts out is very helpful, especially since I constantly think. Mohammad Ali had a great quote about it not being the giant boulder, but the pebble in your shoe that wears you down. This situation is much like that, because the situation that happened is much like a pebble in my shoe. It wears down on me not all at once, but over time, and I'm getting really tired of it.
To end this entry on a happy note, I'm excited to get back into the poker community and enjoy my time in Australia. Very excited :D. I hope that I can do some good in poker and in my EA hobby.
Peace, love, and have a happy new year!
<3 Christopher.
I've learned a lot about myself this past year, and I feel like I am really beginning to grow as a person. One thing I know about myself is that if I have something on my mind, it affects all the other areas of my life. I can't let something go and it weighs down on me heavy.
I planned to tell some family about what happened with my cousin, but my Grandma ended up passing away when I came home, so it wasn't a good time to bring that up. I wanted to tell the Brumleves, but I kind of wussed out, and there really is no good time to explain something like that. I'm really not sure what to do in this situation, it's not something that has happened to anyone I know, and I feel alone on figuring it out. If I tell some people they may be able to give me ideas, but it's not easy. I think the best thing to do is to tell some people I really can trust and listen to what they say, and also potentially contact my Aunt Gail and tell her, since she will likely confront Daphne which might get something done? I'm not really sure what I want out of all of it. I guess just peace of mind for myself would be the goal. How I achieve that is the question. If I make a big scene out of it, it will cause more harm than good I believe, and I don't think contacting John-Paul will really give me an peace of mind unless he apologizes for what he did and assures me that he doesn't do anything like that anymore. That would be pretty reassuring. I'd like peace of mind, and I'd also like to know that it's not going on with some other innocent kid. Those are the two things I'd like to achieve. For gaining peace of mind, I think doing journal entries like this one really helps with that. Getting thoughts out is very helpful, especially since I constantly think. Mohammad Ali had a great quote about it not being the giant boulder, but the pebble in your shoe that wears you down. This situation is much like that, because the situation that happened is much like a pebble in my shoe. It wears down on me not all at once, but over time, and I'm getting really tired of it.
To end this entry on a happy note, I'm excited to get back into the poker community and enjoy my time in Australia. Very excited :D. I hope that I can do some good in poker and in my EA hobby.
Peace, love, and have a happy new year!
<3 Christopher.