The Ravings: September 14, 2009 - Housebook
If I end up being painfully unproductive tomorrow (today), I think I ought to talk about why Housebook failed. It's been two years; I never told anyone outside of my family about that startup.
OTOH, I don't really want to talk about it, so maybe I won't. I made my peace with it tonight, and I'll see Carolynn again this week. It's dubious how worthwhile a retrospective would be. I don't expect I'll ever lead a startup again, and none of the relevant personality traits I'd be examining are novelties. It's relevant, still, largely because of the viciousness of my anger in that last conversation.
I take the fact that my later attempts at starting an organization have ended in a flash of fire, rather than in abruptly realizing that the last embers have turned into ashes, as a good sign. It might not be worth much, but it's definitely something. I won't know what until I make another gambit, though, and I do not expect to ever do so again personally. The next time I'm involved in a startup, it will definitely be in support of someone else. I'm through with trying to fight my own nature for the sake of humanity, or even for my own sake.
Hrm. In fact, the main reason to write this entry would be to have something cogent to say if it comes up. I don't think it will.
I guess there won't be a post on that subject tomorrow after all. =P
OTOH, I don't really want to talk about it, so maybe I won't. I made my peace with it tonight, and I'll see Carolynn again this week. It's dubious how worthwhile a retrospective would be. I don't expect I'll ever lead a startup again, and none of the relevant personality traits I'd be examining are novelties. It's relevant, still, largely because of the viciousness of my anger in that last conversation.
I take the fact that my later attempts at starting an organization have ended in a flash of fire, rather than in abruptly realizing that the last embers have turned into ashes, as a good sign. It might not be worth much, but it's definitely something. I won't know what until I make another gambit, though, and I do not expect to ever do so again personally. The next time I'm involved in a startup, it will definitely be in support of someone else. I'm through with trying to fight my own nature for the sake of humanity, or even for my own sake.
Hrm. In fact, the main reason to write this entry would be to have something cogent to say if it comes up. I don't think it will.
I guess there won't be a post on that subject tomorrow after all. =P