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So yesterday was great. Went to King'sIsland with Aaron. Rode all the coasters except Son of Beast, it was closed *tear*. So while riding the Vortex my phone fell outta my pocket. But tey found it like 2 hours later and called Aaron's cell. It was weird we were sitting down to lunch and he was like your cell is calling me. So we ran into Ally (berries) and talked with her and Cole, should have figured they be there with Radio U. Ally is going to be a VJ on TVU soon, how cool is that. I still Cant believe they are gettign married, makes me feel old. So yeah while Rufio and MXPX were playing Aaron and I went to some of the haunted house stuff there. I think the freakest one was the 3-D clown circus. So yeah perfect timing we left the last haunted thing we were doing and then went to the Ampatheater and and MXPX was finishing. So we were just in time for Relient K. It was kinda funny there were kids there that knew nothing of the Relient K before there last album. Dont you hate Children and their ignorance sometimes. Some people left when they started singing songs that said Lord or Jesus or God. people didnt realize that the 3 bands were christian bands????
Ok so yeah that was the fun of yesrterday but the rest of this week including today I just feel like I'm stuck in a rut. Spread to thin I just dont know what Im going to do. Starting tomorrow I will have 15 credit hours a week, 5 hours in Gahanna Middle schools and of course my 25 hours a week at DQ. And that's not including time outside of class for HW which is probably atleast 20hours a week. so that adds up to 65hours a week. Im just starting to feel helpless and hopeless. And once again I find myself in the middle of couples. It's not that I want a g/f, cause I do, but what gets to me is just not feeling like im part of things any more. Couples only. I miss the days when we all went out and it wasnt like I was going along on somes date, and even when only one person of the coule is there it just seems that things still have to revolve around their b/f or g/f. Im losing all motivation to do anything. It seems like life has gotten to hard again. there are a few other things that are bothering me but I cant say anything about it because of the people who might read this and in both situations i need to get more information. So for now it the not knowing the truth that is bothering me. Life used to be so simple, and then people had to get all confussing. Thinking your an adult when your not. Im not, but thats because the of college. Odd we think we are adults, the world tells us to act like adults, thought we are not treated as adults, and most of us are thinking only of ourselves when many things come up. I have been guilty of this at times. I wish I had someone to just cuddle up with when i feel like shit. But all I have is my pillow to wipe away the tears.
Ok so yeah that was the fun of yesrterday but the rest of this week including today I just feel like I'm stuck in a rut. Spread to thin I just dont know what Im going to do. Starting tomorrow I will have 15 credit hours a week, 5 hours in Gahanna Middle schools and of course my 25 hours a week at DQ. And that's not including time outside of class for HW which is probably atleast 20hours a week. so that adds up to 65hours a week. Im just starting to feel helpless and hopeless. And once again I find myself in the middle of couples. It's not that I want a g/f, cause I do, but what gets to me is just not feeling like im part of things any more. Couples only. I miss the days when we all went out and it wasnt like I was going along on somes date, and even when only one person of the coule is there it just seems that things still have to revolve around their b/f or g/f. Im losing all motivation to do anything. It seems like life has gotten to hard again. there are a few other things that are bothering me but I cant say anything about it because of the people who might read this and in both situations i need to get more information. So for now it the not knowing the truth that is bothering me. Life used to be so simple, and then people had to get all confussing. Thinking your an adult when your not. Im not, but thats because the of college. Odd we think we are adults, the world tells us to act like adults, thought we are not treated as adults, and most of us are thinking only of ourselves when many things come up. I have been guilty of this at times. I wish I had someone to just cuddle up with when i feel like shit. But all I have is my pillow to wipe away the tears.