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I want to quit school, abandoning architecture and the monotony of the everyday routine and the constant feeling of stagnation that haunts me in my sleep.
getting up, breathing in and out, classes, cleaning, working, and breathing.
Slipping into daydreams where I can still be 'somebody'--yet every hour the future slips though my hands as I continue to accomplish nothing, numb to ongoing failure.
It's cruel to have grown up believing in unlimited potential, when conformity is the reality. Life has been a compromise between dreams and practicality.
I'm afraid of never being the person I dreamed of being
I want to skip all my classes to go boating on a lake, to stay up all night just to watch the sun rise, to learn to play a guitar like I'd once dreamed of, and spend a day alone doing nothing but listening to how quiet the world is. I keep wondering if my life would be different if just once I'd decided to fight for what I wanted to do instead of making a responsible compromise.
Maybe I would have been closer to the person I was meant to be.
I really want to take a year off to do the things that I really want to do, to at least have another shot at life before locking myself into the path I'm on. Would that be so bad?
getting up, breathing in and out, classes, cleaning, working, and breathing.
Slipping into daydreams where I can still be 'somebody'--yet every hour the future slips though my hands as I continue to accomplish nothing, numb to ongoing failure.
It's cruel to have grown up believing in unlimited potential, when conformity is the reality. Life has been a compromise between dreams and practicality.
I'm afraid of never being the person I dreamed of being
I want to skip all my classes to go boating on a lake, to stay up all night just to watch the sun rise, to learn to play a guitar like I'd once dreamed of, and spend a day alone doing nothing but listening to how quiet the world is. I keep wondering if my life would be different if just once I'd decided to fight for what I wanted to do instead of making a responsible compromise.
Maybe I would have been closer to the person I was meant to be.
I really want to take a year off to do the things that I really want to do, to at least have another shot at life before locking myself into the path I'm on. Would that be so bad?