wireless
i broke my nocturnal cycle. the result is an hour of sleep and a grumpster lookin' for a hug.
i dislike being subservient. soft and passive, receptive. why do i hate giving people what they want. over-aggressive, irritable. listen to mellow music to calm myself down. the light's broken in the bathroom and it's suddenly filled with ghosts. time is so confusing right now. this is the first time i've been up with the light in so long. where's the darkness. it's not even real light--muddy artificial skies. just bright enough to hurt. i need a nap but i know my brain'll twist and cramp up as soon as i drift horizontally on blue couch. so embarrassing too, even though i do it all the time. stomping jason from door to door. it pulls arteries every time even though he thinks i don't care. of course i do. ruled by emotions after all, regardless of what the constant tsunami of thought claims. okay i am tired. how long will my computer last? sleep now. clothes later. school even later.
i dislike being subservient. soft and passive, receptive. why do i hate giving people what they want. over-aggressive, irritable. listen to mellow music to calm myself down. the light's broken in the bathroom and it's suddenly filled with ghosts. time is so confusing right now. this is the first time i've been up with the light in so long. where's the darkness. it's not even real light--muddy artificial skies. just bright enough to hurt. i need a nap but i know my brain'll twist and cramp up as soon as i drift horizontally on blue couch. so embarrassing too, even though i do it all the time. stomping jason from door to door. it pulls arteries every time even though he thinks i don't care. of course i do. ruled by emotions after all, regardless of what the constant tsunami of thought claims. okay i am tired. how long will my computer last? sleep now. clothes later. school even later.