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You know what I hate (haha I've started a few posts that way...)
Wintertime...
because every year about this time, i go into my "i f-ing hate every f-ing person and everything they say" mode.
it seems like at this time every year, something is happening that pisses me off to no end. and like years before, i don't have anyone to talk to. for the past two years, it was because i was embarrased or no one could possibly understand what was happening to me. but this year it's because i can't f-ing trust anyone. i think i can ultimately trust four people and i don't want to keep complaining to them about things. i'm sick of having to lean on someone because i'm too f-ing weak to deal with this problem myself.
and you know what really sucks? out of the four people- two are people who i have put as some of my best friends (mind you i've had three in high school) one is someone whoi absolutely hated freshman year but we got over that and one is someone who has enough of her own sh*t to deal with that i don't want to keep piling anything on.
so yes, i'm feeling sorry for myself. and no, i don't care anymore
that's part of this...i just don't care anymore. about anything...except volleyball...and even that's kind of like "oh great, i have to go to volleyball" and maybe writing. yes...writing...which reminds me, i have to write out my outline for english due monday....
so i'm in that weird mood and i don't really want any "help" because all it'll do is piss me off more...don't ask, i don't even understand it
so yea, i may not be very friendly or open the next few days, not really anyways, so i just wanted to let anyone who gives a sh*t know
i'm not mad at anyone...ok correction...i AM upset at a few people right now but that might be because of this thing
eh...
*edit*
after this passes and i'm hunky dory again, i will totally regret a billion and a half things i've said
so with the exception of maybe one person, i'm sorry if i say anything bad about you. it's all part of this damn head of mine
love most of you lots? lol : ) *end edit*
Wintertime...
because every year about this time, i go into my "i f-ing hate every f-ing person and everything they say" mode.
it seems like at this time every year, something is happening that pisses me off to no end. and like years before, i don't have anyone to talk to. for the past two years, it was because i was embarrased or no one could possibly understand what was happening to me. but this year it's because i can't f-ing trust anyone. i think i can ultimately trust four people and i don't want to keep complaining to them about things. i'm sick of having to lean on someone because i'm too f-ing weak to deal with this problem myself.
and you know what really sucks? out of the four people- two are people who i have put as some of my best friends (mind you i've had three in high school) one is someone whoi absolutely hated freshman year but we got over that and one is someone who has enough of her own sh*t to deal with that i don't want to keep piling anything on.
so yes, i'm feeling sorry for myself. and no, i don't care anymore
that's part of this...i just don't care anymore. about anything...except volleyball...and even that's kind of like "oh great, i have to go to volleyball" and maybe writing. yes...writing...which reminds me, i have to write out my outline for english due monday....
so i'm in that weird mood and i don't really want any "help" because all it'll do is piss me off more...don't ask, i don't even understand it
so yea, i may not be very friendly or open the next few days, not really anyways, so i just wanted to let anyone who gives a sh*t know
i'm not mad at anyone...ok correction...i AM upset at a few people right now but that might be because of this thing
eh...
*edit*
after this passes and i'm hunky dory again, i will totally regret a billion and a half things i've said
so with the exception of maybe one person, i'm sorry if i say anything bad about you. it's all part of this damn head of mine
love most of you lots? lol : ) *end edit*