worst new years ever

[rabdsquid]

this new years will be the worst. 3 days ago we got a call and was told that my husbands grandfather had a heart attack. he was hospitalized and they were hoping he'd get better. this morning we were told that his kidneys are failing. they are giving him 2-3 days. he can actually go anytime. this is very hard for many reasons. tim left today with his parents for tennesee to be with him. tim is very close to grandpa so this will be harder for him. i love the man dearly and it sucks that i can't be there with him as well. so many things happened leading up to the reason he moved to tennesee. had these things not happened he'd be here instead. i'm hoping that our friends nikki and damon still come over tonight otherwise i'll be here drinking and bringing in the new years alone. i'm doin everything i can to keep busy so i don't think about what is going to happen. meh.

i will miss grandpa very much. he is a great man and full of nothing but love for people. it's sad to see such a great human being go this way.