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I've become dead to the world, it seems.
The things that have happened to me in the past year are 80% surreal.
Situations I never expected to be in, over-the-top battle royales, blurred and foggy memories, repetitious let downs, blackouts....
For the most part has left me feeling like a stranger to myself and uncomfortable in my skin.
I hate sitting around and crying to myself...and getting the sudden feeling of disgust in myself - just feeling repulsed for no apparent reason.
Repulsed in what way? I don't know. (or maybe I do but can't admit)
I guess I'm disappointed in myself or something.
I just can't put my finger on it.
But, I have to do something about it before I lose all sense of myself (as I know it).
The things that have happened to me in the past year are 80% surreal.
Situations I never expected to be in, over-the-top battle royales, blurred and foggy memories, repetitious let downs, blackouts....
For the most part has left me feeling like a stranger to myself and uncomfortable in my skin.
I hate sitting around and crying to myself...and getting the sudden feeling of disgust in myself - just feeling repulsed for no apparent reason.
Repulsed in what way? I don't know. (or maybe I do but can't admit)
I guess I'm disappointed in myself or something.
I just can't put my finger on it.
But, I have to do something about it before I lose all sense of myself (as I know it).