short update, too much to do, possible move
It was lovely to see so many folks at arisia this year! A big reason why I go to some of these things is getting to reconnect with people I haven't seen in a while, even if only briefly as we rush in different directions. Always funny to see who knows who and have people i have known for many years from different contexts try to introduce me to each other. Sometimes there are a lot fewer than 6 degrees, i guess. More later if time . . .
Fir dropped some big news last night. She's been accepted into a program that will have her living in New Zealand for a year, leaving beginning of April. That gives me about 2 and a half months to either move or find a roommate and stay here, paying significantly more in rent and utilities, but still likely more affordable than a lot of other locations. I've got some thinking to do. I moved to this area to live here, with her, and drew my "willing to commute this far" circle surrounding this location. My current job was at the farthest point north on that circle and I'm not really willing to move any farther north closer to job because I am already farther from boston area than I would like (it prevents me from being able to get to a lot of things due to travel time when time is short already). I've already spent a lot of time, energy, and resources trying to get moved into where I am now and I don't even want to think about doing it all over again, especially since I haven't even finished unpacking a lot of the stuff here. It also basically takes away any motivation to unpack any more and makes the whole situation feel more temporary, less secure. It's a feeling i don't like and have a lot of not so great history around. If I stay, i can not have wasted all the settling in. The place is kinda growing on me. 2 people instead of 3 is likely to have it be a bit less crowded, but sharing space with a stranger works differently than with friends and i might end up with functionally less space than before since sharing less. Many of the changes, like the bed frame, are only likely to work in this space. On the other hand, i could move somewhere where i could have Tyler here with me and i do miss my dog. This could be a chance to go somewhere closer south, but that would be farther from work. I'm concerned about feeling isolated again if i'm not with people i know anymore. It isn't as if people generally want to go this far to this tiny place to visit and hang out. I have a little bit of time to figure it out, but in the general scheme of things either moving or finding a roommate, it isn't that much time. So. Some thinking to do.
Fir dropped some big news last night. She's been accepted into a program that will have her living in New Zealand for a year, leaving beginning of April. That gives me about 2 and a half months to either move or find a roommate and stay here, paying significantly more in rent and utilities, but still likely more affordable than a lot of other locations. I've got some thinking to do. I moved to this area to live here, with her, and drew my "willing to commute this far" circle surrounding this location. My current job was at the farthest point north on that circle and I'm not really willing to move any farther north closer to job because I am already farther from boston area than I would like (it prevents me from being able to get to a lot of things due to travel time when time is short already). I've already spent a lot of time, energy, and resources trying to get moved into where I am now and I don't even want to think about doing it all over again, especially since I haven't even finished unpacking a lot of the stuff here. It also basically takes away any motivation to unpack any more and makes the whole situation feel more temporary, less secure. It's a feeling i don't like and have a lot of not so great history around. If I stay, i can not have wasted all the settling in. The place is kinda growing on me. 2 people instead of 3 is likely to have it be a bit less crowded, but sharing space with a stranger works differently than with friends and i might end up with functionally less space than before since sharing less. Many of the changes, like the bed frame, are only likely to work in this space. On the other hand, i could move somewhere where i could have Tyler here with me and i do miss my dog. This could be a chance to go somewhere closer south, but that would be farther from work. I'm concerned about feeling isolated again if i'm not with people i know anymore. It isn't as if people generally want to go this far to this tiny place to visit and hang out. I have a little bit of time to figure it out, but in the general scheme of things either moving or finding a roommate, it isn't that much time. So. Some thinking to do.