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I am so nervous about going back to work tomorrow I can't stop crying. I am literally seconds away from slashing my arm open to watch the blood flow out. I can't take this anymore. Nothing helps. I don't know what to do anymore. I hate this so much. It hurts. I would do anything to make the pain go away. I thought I was through with this. I don't know how to make the pain stop. I'm ready to scream until I puke. I'd really like to be dead. I don't know what to do. I can't stand this. I'd like to see my blood flow from my body. It won't make the pain go away, but at least it'll help.