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Sometimes, my life feels too much like a roller coaster. I hate roller coasters. I spent way too much money in the past few days. Now I can't buy anything, like ever again. The week started off great with Binghamton and NFTY Convention RA acceptances, but that's where the good times stopped. First of all, I'm still sick. It's been over a week. I don't even know the name of my doctor to call and make and appointment. I'm hoping that it will just go away. I ended up not going to my friend's house for Thanksgiving because I just still didn't feel well. Orlando knocked on my door that morning and gave me a flower that he bought for me. How cute is that? He has such a soft spot, but you would never know it! Friday morning I got up at 3:15 in order to leave camp at 3:45 to get to Suffern by 4:30 so Rachel and I could go shopping at 5am. All I wanted was my $250 laptop. We got there too late...
Instead, I spent a stupid amount of money on clothes. I'm starting to regret the fact that I spent so much money...so after shopping it was too early to see friends so I called my house figuring it would be nice to see my family. Silly me, I forgot who I was dealing with. I did, however, get to go out to lunch with my little brother. I figured that I could leave my leftover lunch in the refrigerator, but was stopped by my mother who told me that I was not allowed in the house. After a nice talk with Nehama, I didn't feel the need to punch my mom in the face. So after that fiasco I sat in Starbucks and saw Ashley and Jon. I haven't seen either of them since before the summer. After spending time with them I almost miss the old high school days. Jon mentioned to me that he has a computer that I could use for Binghamton if I'm not able to afford one in time for the new semester. That's such a weight off my shoulders...
Friday night I went to services at my temple. I got to see the whole wonderful Barr family, but services were pathetic. One of the people leading just shouldn't be allowed to. They asked me to lead services this weekend, and I should have said ok. I ache for spiritually fulfilling services. Maybe I'll find that at Binghamton...the jewish life on campus is supposed to be great. After services I went to the Hillel Rabbi's house for what I was hoping to be a nice Shabbat dinner, but all that was left was ice cream. And I had missed Sara. I drove home exhausted...
I did absolutely nothing yesterday and today. I spent more time in Starbucks today doing a little reading before I had to pick up Mitch. I'm glad to have him back on camp...
I have tons of work to do before the semester ends (which is soon!)
I'm close to starting to panic because I have no motivation anymore...
Instead, I spent a stupid amount of money on clothes. I'm starting to regret the fact that I spent so much money...so after shopping it was too early to see friends so I called my house figuring it would be nice to see my family. Silly me, I forgot who I was dealing with. I did, however, get to go out to lunch with my little brother. I figured that I could leave my leftover lunch in the refrigerator, but was stopped by my mother who told me that I was not allowed in the house. After a nice talk with Nehama, I didn't feel the need to punch my mom in the face. So after that fiasco I sat in Starbucks and saw Ashley and Jon. I haven't seen either of them since before the summer. After spending time with them I almost miss the old high school days. Jon mentioned to me that he has a computer that I could use for Binghamton if I'm not able to afford one in time for the new semester. That's such a weight off my shoulders...
Friday night I went to services at my temple. I got to see the whole wonderful Barr family, but services were pathetic. One of the people leading just shouldn't be allowed to. They asked me to lead services this weekend, and I should have said ok. I ache for spiritually fulfilling services. Maybe I'll find that at Binghamton...the jewish life on campus is supposed to be great. After services I went to the Hillel Rabbi's house for what I was hoping to be a nice Shabbat dinner, but all that was left was ice cream. And I had missed Sara. I drove home exhausted...
I did absolutely nothing yesterday and today. I spent more time in Starbucks today doing a little reading before I had to pick up Mitch. I'm glad to have him back on camp...
I have tons of work to do before the semester ends (which is soon!)
I'm close to starting to panic because I have no motivation anymore...