Silent night;
My day started off with a snoty horn from a motorist unseen from my naked eye at the break of dawn. I would've knocked him down had he not sped ahead.
The early early christmas party turned out to be.. How should I put it... Maybe it's too casual for a celebration like this with no games played and no christmas songs heard throughout. I should've taken into account that this is a joyous occassion, not something where we should just sit back and relax. The salad turned out groggy, thirsts weren't quenched well, stomachs were filled to the brim when we still had a log cake and jellies to eat. Time was of utmost factor but I let it slip pass. Everything was a bad plan right from the start. I'm sorry girls, I know how bored everyone were.
And to top it off, we almost got into an accident. I forgot that to make a turn to the right at the junction, I had to wait for the oncoming vehicles to pass before proceeding. I forgot. Seriously, really, honestly. "BEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPP!!!" and the bright headlights were all I could ever see, hear and remember. It was so close. Just too close for "comfort". He was speeding, I wasn't. I can't believe what will happen if I were a second slower, a speed slower. I don't think I can answer to anyone, not even myself, should anything, just, anything, that would happen to them if.. I'd really be too ashamed to face anybody.
I think driving is not meant for someone like me who's always so careless and who can't even see her blind spot.
I thank god and the stars above that I am not sleeping in heavenly peace and that everyone is safe and sound. I am disheartened. I really, really, am.
Note to self: No more hangouts at my place, no more late nights, no more sending anyone home, NO MORE DRIVING UNLESS ACCOMPANIED BY MY BROTHER OR FATHER.
I may be making a mountain out of a molehill because I am still alive and kicking, but I am kinda traumatized, paranoid, or whatever you may call it right now. I still and just can't believe it almost happened.