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So....it has been over a year. Lots of things have happened...I can't even begin to explain. I figured since livejournal has become a lot less popular, it will be safer when posting. I'm at college. Weird saying that, actually writing out "i'm at college" instead of being in high school. I don't miss high school, but I don't like college either. Things are just the same, I don't know why I made it seem like something bigger. It's such a let down. It's the same type of gods obsessing over the same types of things. University of Michigan is all about drinking and football, and then when sober, thinking that these students are as good as the ivy league kids. "public ivy league" my ass. Classes aren't so hard yet, just lots of bullshit work. Like i said, it's all the same. My apathy makes me want to quit, do nothing. But i wouldn't be happy then either. hmph. I have a boyfriend, been together for almost 10 months. It seems like a really long time, but it doesn't feel like it. I love him and i hate him. It's so hard to discern between what I really feel and what I should feel. My parents don't like him, they don't see anything good for me. Everyone tells me I deserve better...maybe I do. But i love the boy, i love being with him most of the time, but he is immature and he doesn't have common sense. Even though it shouldn't be, money is always such a huge issue. He doesn't know how to save, even though he NEEDS to. Ugh...so I don't know, we'll see how long we last. It seems like we'll last for awhile, so far both of us want it to, but changes do need to occur for things to continue. Hm...Yeah, that's my life. boyfriend and college.