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Update: sorry this journal entry is just blah, I'm finding it very difficult to concentrate on the screen, much less write very coherent sentences. So this entry will be presented in Raad-BizarroVision-Jumping fromonetopictoanother-ThoughtProcess-ChocolateChipCookays.
I am at the computer lab again. I tried to install the driver cds on my laptop to fix my computer. It kept on telling me an error message as it reached Disc 2. I am quite certain the problem is due to some software error. Therefore, I will have to order another copy of the driver cds from Compaq. I'll have to wait another few days for it to arrive.
I wasted a lot of time today by trying to fix my computer. I wish I would've started working on this damn Play Analysis earlier. But fate seems to have fixed a different path for me. one of long hours, stress and "brainbreaking" work. I feel very intimidated by this gargantuan amount of work that lays ahead of me, like the bridge keeper in Monty Python: Quest for the holy Grail.
Bridge keeper: none shall pass.
King Arthur: but I must!
Bridge Keeper: none shall pass.
King Arthur: I will pass, see how you stop me.
Bridge Keeper: Then you shall die.
I have to watch that movie again.
There was this girl at Karma today. I met her a few weeks ago in front of a dorm. She was trying to make eye contact with me the whole time and I ignored her. She was looking at me as I left.
Another girl, I met my first day in college. She was working in the International Student Office. She thought my brother and I were cute. I saw her again today working behind a computer in the Library. I saw her checking me out, because I was looking really hot and stylish today. i wore my turquoise shirt, green and blue striped tie tucked into my shirt, black studded belt worn with the buckle to my right side, my dark (almost black) denim jeans, red chucks and a red bandanna tucked into my back right pocket. As I was getting up to leave the library, I refused to make eye contact with her, since doing that, would surely make her shy and look away. So I got up, messed with my hair, flashed a charming smile at no one in particular, basically to show myself off to her. Then I turned my head in her general direction, and sure enough she was looking but quickly looked away. It's funny, girls are so predictable.
Cardiac was there in the library with me earlier tonight. He mentioned that a girl was looking our way. I turned to look at where she was sitting, and we used to talk to that girl every now and then. He said, she must be the #1 Raad Fan Club memember, because she kept on looking at me, as if studying my every move. It feels pretty awesome to be ogled. I was never really a super good looking guy before, so no one really cared or looked. But now, I am the center of attention. When I walk into a room, people look at me and probably go, wow he's stylish. I'm really confident in what I wear, and I think people can feel that. Some days, I wear something, and I don't feel very comfortable about the color or style that I'm pulling that day, and I think people can feel that too!
I also saw Jamie at karma today. She doesn't look half as cute as she used, since she chopped off her hair into half it's original length. She came with a guy. She came in and sat in a place where she could see me from. I saw her and went up to her, gave her a hug, rubbed her back while I was doing it. I usually don't do that, it's weird, but I made an effort. We talked about nothing too important. She mentioned how, Karma is the only place she ever see's me anymore these days, and she was wishing she could see me tonight. I didn't mention to her that I actually wanted to call her, earlier during the day. After the bulk of the conversation, I turned to the guy, smiled, extended my hand, introduced myself to him, he did the same back to me, his name is John. Jamie, obviously embarassed at not having introduced me to her friend was like yeah. Then I broke off the conversation and told her I had some studying to do and returned to my table. Oh yeah jamie asked me for a light, and I went to my table to get my lighter, and I handed it to her. I guess I should've been smooth and offered to actually light her ciggie for her, but oh well, you live and learn. She didn't know how to light my lighter, since it isn't like normal lighters. and she actually tried to light it upside down! I think she was semi-impressed by my snazzy lighter, so more cool points for me.
Now that I have gotten my thoughts down in the journal, I can actually begin to write my paper.
I am at the computer lab again. I tried to install the driver cds on my laptop to fix my computer. It kept on telling me an error message as it reached Disc 2. I am quite certain the problem is due to some software error. Therefore, I will have to order another copy of the driver cds from Compaq. I'll have to wait another few days for it to arrive.
I wasted a lot of time today by trying to fix my computer. I wish I would've started working on this damn Play Analysis earlier. But fate seems to have fixed a different path for me. one of long hours, stress and "brainbreaking" work. I feel very intimidated by this gargantuan amount of work that lays ahead of me, like the bridge keeper in Monty Python: Quest for the holy Grail.
Bridge keeper: none shall pass.
King Arthur: but I must!
Bridge Keeper: none shall pass.
King Arthur: I will pass, see how you stop me.
Bridge Keeper: Then you shall die.
I have to watch that movie again.
There was this girl at Karma today. I met her a few weeks ago in front of a dorm. She was trying to make eye contact with me the whole time and I ignored her. She was looking at me as I left.
Another girl, I met my first day in college. She was working in the International Student Office. She thought my brother and I were cute. I saw her again today working behind a computer in the Library. I saw her checking me out, because I was looking really hot and stylish today. i wore my turquoise shirt, green and blue striped tie tucked into my shirt, black studded belt worn with the buckle to my right side, my dark (almost black) denim jeans, red chucks and a red bandanna tucked into my back right pocket. As I was getting up to leave the library, I refused to make eye contact with her, since doing that, would surely make her shy and look away. So I got up, messed with my hair, flashed a charming smile at no one in particular, basically to show myself off to her. Then I turned my head in her general direction, and sure enough she was looking but quickly looked away. It's funny, girls are so predictable.
Cardiac was there in the library with me earlier tonight. He mentioned that a girl was looking our way. I turned to look at where she was sitting, and we used to talk to that girl every now and then. He said, she must be the #1 Raad Fan Club memember, because she kept on looking at me, as if studying my every move. It feels pretty awesome to be ogled. I was never really a super good looking guy before, so no one really cared or looked. But now, I am the center of attention. When I walk into a room, people look at me and probably go, wow he's stylish. I'm really confident in what I wear, and I think people can feel that. Some days, I wear something, and I don't feel very comfortable about the color or style that I'm pulling that day, and I think people can feel that too!
I also saw Jamie at karma today. She doesn't look half as cute as she used, since she chopped off her hair into half it's original length. She came with a guy. She came in and sat in a place where she could see me from. I saw her and went up to her, gave her a hug, rubbed her back while I was doing it. I usually don't do that, it's weird, but I made an effort. We talked about nothing too important. She mentioned how, Karma is the only place she ever see's me anymore these days, and she was wishing she could see me tonight. I didn't mention to her that I actually wanted to call her, earlier during the day. After the bulk of the conversation, I turned to the guy, smiled, extended my hand, introduced myself to him, he did the same back to me, his name is John. Jamie, obviously embarassed at not having introduced me to her friend was like yeah. Then I broke off the conversation and told her I had some studying to do and returned to my table. Oh yeah jamie asked me for a light, and I went to my table to get my lighter, and I handed it to her. I guess I should've been smooth and offered to actually light her ciggie for her, but oh well, you live and learn. She didn't know how to light my lighter, since it isn't like normal lighters. and she actually tried to light it upside down! I think she was semi-impressed by my snazzy lighter, so more cool points for me.
Now that I have gotten my thoughts down in the journal, I can actually begin to write my paper.