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fuck. i can't sleep. this past month has been really busy for me. i started work again. getting mona up and ready for school by myself w/Gavin is really interesting. and then getting ready for work and trying to keep the house cleaned and keep up w/laundry. i feel like i have no time to breathe or think.
Gavin is doing great! He's such a happy little boy. In some ways I feel like a new mother because he does things Mona never did. It takes some getting used to. And of course Kevin thinks I'm too paranoid about his health and I'm way over protective of him. Which he's probably right, after everything I've gone thru w/Mona as a baby.
Still breastfeeding. I would like to BF until Gavin is one, but right now I'm just taking it day by day. Pumping at work sucks. Not really a private place to do it exceapt the old smoke room. Which is fine, it's comfortable, I just wish there wasn't a small window on the door.
It's finally May! When is spring going to be here? It's cold and rainy most the time. I would like to plant my flowers. My hydrandra which I thought died in the fall is actully alive! It started budding last month! Yay! I actully know what I'm doing kinda w/my flowers!
I would also like to take Mona and Gavin outside more. Mona loves the sunshine! I took her outside last week when it was nice out and she loved it. Took her to the park and put her down the slide. She giggled.
I need to get my spring cleaning done. Get rid of a bunch of stuff. I am tired of clutter. I've been looking at all the storage containers at Fred Meyer whenever I'm working and can't make up my mind which one would work for us. I don't want to spend the money on something that won't work.
I would like to buy a sewing machine and start quilting again. I don't have a lot of time for myself these days so I'll probably just end up spending my money on groceries or something for the kids.
saying "the kids" is still weird to me. I'm so used to talking about just Mona.
I try really hard to make time for my friends and family. It's just really hard. Mona and Gavin need a lot of attention. Going back to work just frusterates me because I'd rather be home w/Mona and Gavin and keeping up w/the housework. I missed my nephew Lance's 1st birthday because we couldn't make the time to go down the sumner for it. I feel really bad. And on top of it all Kevin and I are trying to plan our wedding which isn't going so well because the place we want to have it at is really hard to get ahold of.
I applied for a new job down the road to where I live. I just heard back from the Program director and she offered me a different job than what I applied for. She offered me the birthday party planner/parent's night out helper postion. (at the little gym) Part time making a dollar less than I make right now at Fred Meyer. I'm not sure what I should do. I would love to do this job, to get our of retail and gain the experience. plus it's a set schedule, and I'd have Mon-Thursday off. Days Mona has school and she's with me. But I'd be taking a significant pay cut. With the new baby and all of these medical bills, I don't think Kevin and I can afford it right now.
Okay, I'm going to bed. Getting tired.
Gavin is doing great! He's such a happy little boy. In some ways I feel like a new mother because he does things Mona never did. It takes some getting used to. And of course Kevin thinks I'm too paranoid about his health and I'm way over protective of him. Which he's probably right, after everything I've gone thru w/Mona as a baby.
Still breastfeeding. I would like to BF until Gavin is one, but right now I'm just taking it day by day. Pumping at work sucks. Not really a private place to do it exceapt the old smoke room. Which is fine, it's comfortable, I just wish there wasn't a small window on the door.
It's finally May! When is spring going to be here? It's cold and rainy most the time. I would like to plant my flowers. My hydrandra which I thought died in the fall is actully alive! It started budding last month! Yay! I actully know what I'm doing kinda w/my flowers!
I would also like to take Mona and Gavin outside more. Mona loves the sunshine! I took her outside last week when it was nice out and she loved it. Took her to the park and put her down the slide. She giggled.
I need to get my spring cleaning done. Get rid of a bunch of stuff. I am tired of clutter. I've been looking at all the storage containers at Fred Meyer whenever I'm working and can't make up my mind which one would work for us. I don't want to spend the money on something that won't work.
I would like to buy a sewing machine and start quilting again. I don't have a lot of time for myself these days so I'll probably just end up spending my money on groceries or something for the kids.
saying "the kids" is still weird to me. I'm so used to talking about just Mona.
I try really hard to make time for my friends and family. It's just really hard. Mona and Gavin need a lot of attention. Going back to work just frusterates me because I'd rather be home w/Mona and Gavin and keeping up w/the housework. I missed my nephew Lance's 1st birthday because we couldn't make the time to go down the sumner for it. I feel really bad. And on top of it all Kevin and I are trying to plan our wedding which isn't going so well because the place we want to have it at is really hard to get ahold of.
I applied for a new job down the road to where I live. I just heard back from the Program director and she offered me a different job than what I applied for. She offered me the birthday party planner/parent's night out helper postion. (at the little gym) Part time making a dollar less than I make right now at Fred Meyer. I'm not sure what I should do. I would love to do this job, to get our of retail and gain the experience. plus it's a set schedule, and I'd have Mon-Thursday off. Days Mona has school and she's with me. But I'd be taking a significant pay cut. With the new baby and all of these medical bills, I don't think Kevin and I can afford it right now.
Okay, I'm going to bed. Getting tired.