Hooray for 2009, already better than late 2008!
...I...just...wrote.
I wrote a poem...about not being able to write, LOL...and put it on Facebook. Yeah, that means that it's inspiration will probably see it if he's still nosing about on my profile. I just don't care...it needed to be done, and it needed to be posted somewhere, and I think that was a better place for it than here.
Apparently, that small act...finally, finally, FINALLY opened up the floodgates again, lol... I haven't been able to write a single thing since late October. I haven't been able to envision any of my intended video projects...the "Did You Miss Me" video is in pieces on my friend's computer. I could no longer even make sense of the clips I had, I didn't know where they were supposed to go anymore.
And I had an almost-complete movie outline on here, that I had written but left out a ton of crucial details which my mom pointed out when she proofread it in early October. I needed to finish it so that I would have a clear vision in my head of the script I would write in the screenwriting class I intended to take this month. I have tried, many times, to write the God-forsaken thing...sat and stared at my screen, totally unable to write even one word or take out even one sentence that I didn't need, not knowing what to do with the thing even though it's actually almost entirely based on actual events in my life (suffice to say, if the thing ever got made, someone would probably kill me!) and I had already spelled out to my mom exactly what was going to be added in.
I just fucking wrote it. In one shot...I added like 5 paragraphs to it, took out parts that didn't make sense/just weren't good, added details...and added a hugely intricate sequence at the very end, that I'd been having a LOT of difficulty figuring out even back before my muse took her extended leave of absence :)...because I could see it. I could damn well see it, and I haven't been able to do any of that in SUCH A LONG TIME.
And now it's done, and I think it's REALLY done, and I think it's good, and I think I could write the screenplay for that course. And I think I'd get an A.
Unfortunately, I think the course is full. ;) HOWEVER...at least this means I probably don't have to find a new intended line of work. I may not have a clue where I want to live now...not Virginia, SURE AS HELL not New York (I thought I was a lot more 'over it' than I thought, my dad was talking about my parents' trip to Connecticut last fall today and mentioned something about going through Syracuse, and I thought I was going to pass out)... I may honestly go back to my old, long-held plan of moving to California, or I may act on my love for Chicago and go there, or I might even go out to Vancouver or something just to see if I could be happy in this country somewhere else...I truly don't know. I've NEVER not known, I've never not had a plan, and that's freaky to me. However, I was also thinking I may have to revise what I wanted to do entirely...without creativity, it's just not possible.
But I freaking did it, I wrote the outline, and that has given me back my confidence in this whole thing. I can see it, I can hear some dialogue in my head, and that's all I need. I can freaking do this thing.
Let's just hope this means that 2009 will continue to be a good year!!! :D
Happy new year everyone!!!
I wrote a poem...about not being able to write, LOL...and put it on Facebook. Yeah, that means that it's inspiration will probably see it if he's still nosing about on my profile. I just don't care...it needed to be done, and it needed to be posted somewhere, and I think that was a better place for it than here.
Apparently, that small act...finally, finally, FINALLY opened up the floodgates again, lol... I haven't been able to write a single thing since late October. I haven't been able to envision any of my intended video projects...the "Did You Miss Me" video is in pieces on my friend's computer. I could no longer even make sense of the clips I had, I didn't know where they were supposed to go anymore.
And I had an almost-complete movie outline on here, that I had written but left out a ton of crucial details which my mom pointed out when she proofread it in early October. I needed to finish it so that I would have a clear vision in my head of the script I would write in the screenwriting class I intended to take this month. I have tried, many times, to write the God-forsaken thing...sat and stared at my screen, totally unable to write even one word or take out even one sentence that I didn't need, not knowing what to do with the thing even though it's actually almost entirely based on actual events in my life (suffice to say, if the thing ever got made, someone would probably kill me!) and I had already spelled out to my mom exactly what was going to be added in.
I just fucking wrote it. In one shot...I added like 5 paragraphs to it, took out parts that didn't make sense/just weren't good, added details...and added a hugely intricate sequence at the very end, that I'd been having a LOT of difficulty figuring out even back before my muse took her extended leave of absence :)...because I could see it. I could damn well see it, and I haven't been able to do any of that in SUCH A LONG TIME.
And now it's done, and I think it's REALLY done, and I think it's good, and I think I could write the screenplay for that course. And I think I'd get an A.
Unfortunately, I think the course is full. ;) HOWEVER...at least this means I probably don't have to find a new intended line of work. I may not have a clue where I want to live now...not Virginia, SURE AS HELL not New York (I thought I was a lot more 'over it' than I thought, my dad was talking about my parents' trip to Connecticut last fall today and mentioned something about going through Syracuse, and I thought I was going to pass out)... I may honestly go back to my old, long-held plan of moving to California, or I may act on my love for Chicago and go there, or I might even go out to Vancouver or something just to see if I could be happy in this country somewhere else...I truly don't know. I've NEVER not known, I've never not had a plan, and that's freaky to me. However, I was also thinking I may have to revise what I wanted to do entirely...without creativity, it's just not possible.
But I freaking did it, I wrote the outline, and that has given me back my confidence in this whole thing. I can see it, I can hear some dialogue in my head, and that's all I need. I can freaking do this thing.
Let's just hope this means that 2009 will continue to be a good year!!! :D
Happy new year everyone!!!