Nov 18, 2004 13:58
okay so here it goes. i guess i have to post in this dumb and pointless thing even though no one really cares about my life enough to comment or talk to me about it.
well its all half days this week and i dont like it. i dont know why i like school so much but.... i just do, me and samm havent talked since October 28. well we have talked just not like how we used to... and to be honest i think it is for the better. for both of us. i mean think about it. who wants a friendship that is always getting fucked up. no one i dont want to cry anymore and im sure she doesnt want to go through this again. i kinda want her to read this so therefore i will post this as public. it's so weird it feels like we are still friends i mean the only difference is if she is online i dont i/m her but we never really were that close i guess. i mean she was my best friend in a way but in another way we werent really friends at all. and that is the truth and it isnt something nice to say and i dont want to be mean but it is the truth; we didnt have a good friendship we have promised a lot of things and most of those promises we broke. it hurts especially since i feel like i have no friends and it is hard when we do group work in english because i can never get a partner, i always go with kat and robyn and i love them dont get me wrong but i kinda feel like i dont belong in their lil group. sometimes i go with cuban but today he partnered with samm so... it was hard. i cant wait til half dsays are over just because i want to stay after... how weird am i. i like school a little bit too much. i really hope i dont suck in womens ensemble next week. i am staying after with spinks to practice but idk how well that will turn out. i dont want to be terrible in that anymore i mean mrs chase keeps telling me how well i am doing but i just dont believe her, i mean i may be doing good in chorus but it is so hard to hear my part at Soprano 2 it must be hard to sing alto.. i mean in chorus... it is the middle part. soprano is so easy and i never realized that before. all you have to do is sing melody... please. please. please. comment
i dont care who you are friend, stranger, family, anybody... COMMENT!
<3/Rup
it sounds like you and me... well we werent meant to be.