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so this is my update, im sick, feel like shit. going to dr tomorrow. hope everythings ok. dont know what im going to do about the boy situation. the mor ei talk to him, the more immature he seems. and today he was so disrespectful, just not someone i would want to take home to my parents. but i feel bad. im the reason him and his x broke up and here i am, not interested. i guess i just wanted what i couldnt have, and now that i can have it its not desirable... idk what im going to do, because i really do like him, or at least i did. its just he gets me so annoyed at times, and he seems so arrogant. not 1 of my friends thinks i should go out with him. and maybe they're right. im not the type to do what everyone says i should, but maybe they're right. still getting an A in chem! WOOT WOOT! i drove my car for the 1st time today. it stinks, def have to do something about that. it smells like old ppl. idk. its cool tho b/c its MY car. true its model is the yr i was born, 88, but its MINE no one elses, just mine. i dont have to put the seat back, dont have to put the station back to where it was. i can leave my shit in there, because its MY car. saturday i went to the bowling alley with all of these kids i didnt know, felt kinda left out, 7 kids, 5 had leather jackets on. 3 had mohawks or spiked hair. it was just kinda awkward, but turned out to be awesome. def. had fun! i got a 63 not too shabby!!! well i shall go now.
i am in love with jenna carpenter smith
<3/Amanda