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I've been segmenting my time over the past few months into set stages. The funny thing is I can't decide if I'm doing this intentionally or subconsciously. I guess I should explain how I define my segmentation of my time.
I've been viewing my days as a series of tasks, which in succession, result in an ultimate goal. Sometimes that goal is a smoke, sometimes a Pilsner, often sleep, but I've been finding myself unable to shake my mental check-list. My question is whether or not this behavior results from a subconscious over emphasis on efficiency and my underlying, some could say perfectionistic ways, or if it is even a minor form of OCD (the OC disorder). It's possible I have an acute form of autism, forcing my brain to act in these ways.
I know this is all crazy jibber jabber. Thinking about myself in these analytical ways is what I do for kicks when I don't have pressing school work.
My only pressing concern is in finding work for May-Sept. I'm going to take a leave from the Amigos kitchen, which I think is my top priority right now. Not that I don't love working there, I simply need a change of scenery desperately. Although the weather is beginning to turn around that isn't the issue. I'm getting antsy. School is fine and all, I'm enjoying these classes and the 'experience', but it's not what I need right now.
That is, right now in May.
Right now in March I'm doin' fine.
I've been viewing my days as a series of tasks, which in succession, result in an ultimate goal. Sometimes that goal is a smoke, sometimes a Pilsner, often sleep, but I've been finding myself unable to shake my mental check-list. My question is whether or not this behavior results from a subconscious over emphasis on efficiency and my underlying, some could say perfectionistic ways, or if it is even a minor form of OCD (the OC disorder). It's possible I have an acute form of autism, forcing my brain to act in these ways.
I know this is all crazy jibber jabber. Thinking about myself in these analytical ways is what I do for kicks when I don't have pressing school work.
My only pressing concern is in finding work for May-Sept. I'm going to take a leave from the Amigos kitchen, which I think is my top priority right now. Not that I don't love working there, I simply need a change of scenery desperately. Although the weather is beginning to turn around that isn't the issue. I'm getting antsy. School is fine and all, I'm enjoying these classes and the 'experience', but it's not what I need right now.
That is, right now in May.
Right now in March I'm doin' fine.