Mulitfaceted
Disclaimer: I'm sort of tipsy at the moment. You were warned!
So, here I am. At a "kegger." I'm 23, soon to be 24, and it's my first one. A bonified college kegger, and I'm being antisocial. I'm in the basement talking to you now.
I don't know why I feel the need to shy from society, or even from company for that matter. Perhaps in a stranger's company, I feel the need to perform. To become the social butterfly which is quite unlike the loner I truly am. To be interesting. To be unique.
In social situations I feel the need to be larger than life. I become the actress. The debutante The diva. Is this just an act, or another facet or my otherwise strange multifaceted personality?
I've often thought that I have multiple personalities that I'm always aware of, and in control of. It's incredibly strange. Do any of you feel the need to become something other than yourself, for the sheer action of feeling like you're living another life? For just one night?
I don't mean the dream of living out a fantasy, or having the anonymity of being an online personality. Is this something that's done often? Something where you can be many people to many others?
I don't think I'd be myself unless I was many other versions of myself.
So, here I am. At a "kegger." I'm 23, soon to be 24, and it's my first one. A bonified college kegger, and I'm being antisocial. I'm in the basement talking to you now.
I don't know why I feel the need to shy from society, or even from company for that matter. Perhaps in a stranger's company, I feel the need to perform. To become the social butterfly which is quite unlike the loner I truly am. To be interesting. To be unique.
In social situations I feel the need to be larger than life. I become the actress. The debutante The diva. Is this just an act, or another facet or my otherwise strange multifaceted personality?
I've often thought that I have multiple personalities that I'm always aware of, and in control of. It's incredibly strange. Do any of you feel the need to become something other than yourself, for the sheer action of feeling like you're living another life? For just one night?
I don't mean the dream of living out a fantasy, or having the anonymity of being an online personality. Is this something that's done often? Something where you can be many people to many others?
I don't think I'd be myself unless I was many other versions of myself.