what an update.....
I am shaking. I am stunned. I am furious.
Never have I been so stunned. SO ANGRY!!!!!!!! So hurt... completely shocked and devastated. What was I saying a month ago? I'm scared this will all go away?
It's tuesday..... I move on monday. 5 minutes ago, Brian changed his status to IN A RELATIONSHIP!!!!! LESS THAN A MONTH AGO HE WAS TRYING TO HAVE SEX WITH ME THREE NIGHTS IN A ROW!!!!!!!!!1 In a parking lot..... in Dave's living room.... haha...... buttering me up to get him tickets and take him backstage and do this and that......
I'm so embarassed that I let this piece of shit use me. I am so devastated that I thought that this was something. I am so sad. I cannot believe this is happening at this fucking moment.
But at the same time....... what did I expect? THIS is my karma..... going after him, I did the same thing to someone else I care so much about...
My heart is so broken. I can't pretend this doesn't break every part of me.
I may have just made the biggest mistake of my life.
Never in my life have I been so blindsided by two people that I care about so much literally at the same time. I've had my heart broken, I've had people crush me and break my spirit...... Use me and lie to me. But this is so different.....
wow. lol I'm glad to be leaving and at the same time I don't want to go. The fucking irony of my life.
Never have I been so stunned. SO ANGRY!!!!!!!! So hurt... completely shocked and devastated. What was I saying a month ago? I'm scared this will all go away?
It's tuesday..... I move on monday. 5 minutes ago, Brian changed his status to IN A RELATIONSHIP!!!!! LESS THAN A MONTH AGO HE WAS TRYING TO HAVE SEX WITH ME THREE NIGHTS IN A ROW!!!!!!!!!1 In a parking lot..... in Dave's living room.... haha...... buttering me up to get him tickets and take him backstage and do this and that......
I'm so embarassed that I let this piece of shit use me. I am so devastated that I thought that this was something. I am so sad. I cannot believe this is happening at this fucking moment.
But at the same time....... what did I expect? THIS is my karma..... going after him, I did the same thing to someone else I care so much about...
My heart is so broken. I can't pretend this doesn't break every part of me.
I may have just made the biggest mistake of my life.
Never in my life have I been so blindsided by two people that I care about so much literally at the same time. I've had my heart broken, I've had people crush me and break my spirit...... Use me and lie to me. But this is so different.....
wow. lol I'm glad to be leaving and at the same time I don't want to go. The fucking irony of my life.