do you.....
..believe in fate? and signs? and soul mates? and all that shit?
I do but I don't. hmmmmmmm....
Last two days have been good. Weird at work, every kid is sick and puking and getting sent home or staying home, etc. ew. yeah.. I hope I don't get sick. lol.. I got the flu shot and it's supposed to make you sick but I think I'm in the clear. Ohio here I come... no sickness! :)
I don't know how much I like people anymore. I don't know how to explain it. I just wish things were different. That they were easier. That people got along and weren't jealous or hurt or anything. I don't know how to say it without saying it so I won't say much. Just that I'm sorry. I am very happy. My happiness is bittersweet but it is something I need to accept and enjoy. I deserve it. I talked to Jared last night about what we want (separately) when we meet someone, like.. basically a "what are you looking for" and he said some sweet things.. and just... ahhhh.. got off the phone and cried for a while... a sad lonely cry but a good cry. No, we are not together and we have the freedom to do whatever we want but we respect what we seem to have and like each other alot and hopefully things will someday change for us. If they don't.. well.. I will enjoy the times we were given and cherish them. He is an amazing person to know and to care about and to be cared about by.. if that makes sense the way I'm typing it.
Be happy with and appreciate what you have. Don't dwell on what you can't or don't have. Forgive. Love.. trust. Live.
life is too short to be bitter or jealous or sad or unloved or unhappy. don't do it.
I love you guys. have a good weekend.
I am going to SD tomorrow night (to see Nate, Matt, Ang, Mia, Scott & Mandieee.. yes), writing a paper saturday, going to The Roots on sunday, moving all weekend/week, OC thursday, Ohio friday and Incubus saturday. Birthday next tuesday. :)
LIFE.IS.AMAZING!
cherish it, b/c you never know when it'll be done.
I do but I don't. hmmmmmmm....
Last two days have been good. Weird at work, every kid is sick and puking and getting sent home or staying home, etc. ew. yeah.. I hope I don't get sick. lol.. I got the flu shot and it's supposed to make you sick but I think I'm in the clear. Ohio here I come... no sickness! :)
I don't know how much I like people anymore. I don't know how to explain it. I just wish things were different. That they were easier. That people got along and weren't jealous or hurt or anything. I don't know how to say it without saying it so I won't say much. Just that I'm sorry. I am very happy. My happiness is bittersweet but it is something I need to accept and enjoy. I deserve it. I talked to Jared last night about what we want (separately) when we meet someone, like.. basically a "what are you looking for" and he said some sweet things.. and just... ahhhh.. got off the phone and cried for a while... a sad lonely cry but a good cry. No, we are not together and we have the freedom to do whatever we want but we respect what we seem to have and like each other alot and hopefully things will someday change for us. If they don't.. well.. I will enjoy the times we were given and cherish them. He is an amazing person to know and to care about and to be cared about by.. if that makes sense the way I'm typing it.
Be happy with and appreciate what you have. Don't dwell on what you can't or don't have. Forgive. Love.. trust. Live.
life is too short to be bitter or jealous or sad or unloved or unhappy. don't do it.
I love you guys. have a good weekend.
I am going to SD tomorrow night (to see Nate, Matt, Ang, Mia, Scott & Mandieee.. yes), writing a paper saturday, going to The Roots on sunday, moving all weekend/week, OC thursday, Ohio friday and Incubus saturday. Birthday next tuesday. :)
LIFE.IS.AMAZING!
cherish it, b/c you never know when it'll be done.