*sigh*

[r_eventide]

Y'know, sometimes--well, a lot of times--I wish I weren't such a...girl. I was getting really frustrated at Bujinkan practice tonight because I just wasn't getting the techniques. And extreme frustration always leads to me getting a little teary-eyed...which I utterly despise doing. But no matter how much I don't actually feel like crying, I do anyway. Just can't stop it no matter how hard I try. And then, Sempai was showing us a technique, and I get utterly whacked in the face...which then, of course, makes me even more frustrated...so I get more teary-eyed.... And then I realize my nose is bleeding rather profusely. Not Sempai's fault because it's been so dry here I've had a bloody nose just about every other day for the past week; even if I just blow my nose, it starts doing a mini-Nile-River out of my schnoz. 'Course, now my embarrassment and frustration really start the tears going, which just makes me even more embarrassed and frustrated, etc. etc. Ugh, I felt like such a tool. I used to not cry at hardly anything; why do I seem to cry at every little stupid whip stitch nowadays? GRRRR.

On the bright side, I managed to not bleed all over my gi, and Sempai gave me one of his bokken (wooden practice sword). I was like o.O . He said it wasn't because he felt bad. I kept telling him to not feel bad. I'm the one that (1) got myself smacked in the face and (2) it doesn't take much to make my nose bleed all over.

But still. I'm a girl. It's annoying. Go me.

I'm gonna go eat fattening food and watch H 'cause he's pretty.

I need a ninja icon.

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