Of all the gin joints...

[r_do]

So ive had something on my mind for a while now. Ive been wondering why sex has been so dull lately. And Its been going on ever since I was with claire last. Sex with anna krissy kaity and claire was amazing. I remember it all very vividly. In my memories its like a film. Bright vivid colors, dramatic. But after the last time with claire, It was like every girl I was with was dull, as if black and white. Still good, great at times just not quite the same. And I could never put my finger on exactly why. And It was really bothering me, Why I wasnt preforming up to the last time with her. I couldnt figure it out. Was it me? was something wrong with me? Was I the cause. Did she break me? Maybe I was broken? Then Oddly enough the answer came to me in a maxim. An artical about reunion sex. Odd I know. It was saying that when you idealize someone for a long time, they tend to live up to that positive view when your together. they call it positive illusion. Basicly It means that the people Ive been with since The only thing that I was having issues with was that I didnt have the same connection as I did with anna krissy kaity or claire. I had onle known most of them less than a week. So the connection wasnt there. It wasnt as exciting for me caise I cared less. Such a simple answer and on my own I would of nuked it. Never caught on. Now I dont know if I can fix it. But now that I know what the problem is it makes a little easier to deal with :)
See you space cowboy...