Memories and Celebrations
Thanks for the thoughts and kind words. Yesterday was rather surprisingly difficult. I did not expect it to hit me as hard as it did. I'd been struggling a lot and having a bad time the week or so before but I kept thinking it was related to other things. I finally realized it was the anniversary wearing on me. Clearly, it was affecting me more than I was consciously aware. I'm not sure why. (And there's a part of me that thinks how stupid that ten should be a bigger deal for some reason than nine or eight...but you can't control things like that)
We went out as a family last night. Just to have fun and be together and remember Daddy. We didn't even really talk about it much, just enjoyed each other and our family and who we are, who we were, and who we've become. But, you know, that's honoring his memory. Because each and every one of us would not be who we are today without his influence and without going through losing him.
To segue into other news, we went to Chili's for dinner. I split an order of mushroom jack fajitas with my baby brother and it was completely, 100% guiltfree because (drumroll, please)
... as of yesterday's weigh-in I am officially at the lowest weight I've been since originally putting it all on!
I'm not sure how, 'cause I hardly exercised since it was a hard week, but I'll take it! Plus, I have lost more than 10 pounds since Labor Day!
I haven't been this small since sometime in 2002, probably. (I don't recall exactly when I passed certain milestones originally - that's the deal with depression - but I am definitely celebrating crossing them in the other direction!)
In fact, speaking of milestones, I am very, very close to passing a big one.
How close? Well, funny you should ask...
...Just between 2.5 and 3 lbs!
That's the same as:
~ the average human brain
~ this laptop
~ this jar of buttons
~ about one-and-a-half racks of baby back ribs
~ a modern Army helmet
~ or this teeny tiny little dog!
That's ALL!
I hope to lose it by next week, my first October weigh-in. Since I lost 2.4 lbs this week (with hardly any exercise), I'm fairly certain I can do it if I push myself!
Getting that great weigh-in was a very nice look to the future on a day when I was remembering the past.
We went out as a family last night. Just to have fun and be together and remember Daddy. We didn't even really talk about it much, just enjoyed each other and our family and who we are, who we were, and who we've become. But, you know, that's honoring his memory. Because each and every one of us would not be who we are today without his influence and without going through losing him.
To segue into other news, we went to Chili's for dinner. I split an order of mushroom jack fajitas with my baby brother and it was completely, 100% guiltfree because (drumroll, please)
... as of yesterday's weigh-in I am officially at the lowest weight I've been since originally putting it all on!
I'm not sure how, 'cause I hardly exercised since it was a hard week, but I'll take it! Plus, I have lost more than 10 pounds since Labor Day!
I haven't been this small since sometime in 2002, probably. (I don't recall exactly when I passed certain milestones originally - that's the deal with depression - but I am definitely celebrating crossing them in the other direction!)
In fact, speaking of milestones, I am very, very close to passing a big one.
How close? Well, funny you should ask...
...Just between 2.5 and 3 lbs!
That's the same as:
~ the average human brain
~ this laptop
~ this jar of buttons
~ about one-and-a-half racks of baby back ribs
~ a modern Army helmet
~ or this teeny tiny little dog!
That's ALL!
I hope to lose it by next week, my first October weigh-in. Since I lost 2.4 lbs this week (with hardly any exercise), I'm fairly certain I can do it if I push myself!
Getting that great weigh-in was a very nice look to the future on a day when I was remembering the past.