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well. i'm 20. i feel old. no, i don't feel old. i sound old. i don't feel any different than i did yesterday, but to say that i'm finally out of the teens is so odd.
this time last year i was just becoming comfortable with my sexuality. i had reached the point where i didn't care if everyone knew. i am much more open about it now, to the point where i joke about it. and that's fun.
in a year i've had 4 homes: Pepperhill (in a way), my house, Centre, and London. I have made a life for myself everywhere but nowhere lasts. I have not been in one place longer than 3 months at a time. and my house feels the least like home out of the them all, not including pepperhill cause that was a joke. it is a very strange feeling that my room has become more of a storage closet than a room. and my house has become more of a point to pass through than someplace that i live. i guess this is a part of growing up. it used to be exciting to move from place to place so often but now i just want things to settle down. i want to have a home that is more permanent than just a couple months. if there is one thing that i've learned in my 19th year it's that nothing lasts forever. like that quote from The Outsiders "nothing gold can stay."
this time last year i was just becoming comfortable with my sexuality. i had reached the point where i didn't care if everyone knew. i am much more open about it now, to the point where i joke about it. and that's fun.
in a year i've had 4 homes: Pepperhill (in a way), my house, Centre, and London. I have made a life for myself everywhere but nowhere lasts. I have not been in one place longer than 3 months at a time. and my house feels the least like home out of the them all, not including pepperhill cause that was a joke. it is a very strange feeling that my room has become more of a storage closet than a room. and my house has become more of a point to pass through than someplace that i live. i guess this is a part of growing up. it used to be exciting to move from place to place so often but now i just want things to settle down. i want to have a home that is more permanent than just a couple months. if there is one thing that i've learned in my 19th year it's that nothing lasts forever. like that quote from The Outsiders "nothing gold can stay."