meet me in montauk.
So I've spent the majority of my day laying around in my boxers and not leaving my bed.
I'm sick, once again. My throat hurts so terribly that I think I might as well just give up smoking all together. Since this is the third day of it hurting so badly, I've had one cigarette a day. I think I might have to go to the doctor on Monday.
Anyway, I just finished watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I love that movie. But after it was over I spent the next 20 minutes crying in my bathroom.
I wish we could meet in Montauk and just start all over again.
I wish I really was happy being alone.
I wish I wasn't so upset and neurotic.
I wish I had been a better boyfriend.
I wish I wouldn't have done so many of the things I have done in the past. I would do some things so differently.
But I always think that regretting things couldn't be any more of a waste of time, because there is nothing you can do about them. Except maybe learn from your mistakes and try not to make the same ones in the future.
I need to pull myself up and out of this and learn from it and become a better person.
I'm sick, once again. My throat hurts so terribly that I think I might as well just give up smoking all together. Since this is the third day of it hurting so badly, I've had one cigarette a day. I think I might have to go to the doctor on Monday.
Anyway, I just finished watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I love that movie. But after it was over I spent the next 20 minutes crying in my bathroom.
I wish we could meet in Montauk and just start all over again.
I wish I really was happy being alone.
I wish I wasn't so upset and neurotic.
I wish I had been a better boyfriend.
I wish I wouldn't have done so many of the things I have done in the past. I would do some things so differently.
But I always think that regretting things couldn't be any more of a waste of time, because there is nothing you can do about them. Except maybe learn from your mistakes and try not to make the same ones in the future.
I need to pull myself up and out of this and learn from it and become a better person.