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Hey, well, uh..
Iono, Im just having a hard time right now, sorta have been all day. I dont know why, I was starting to think that all I am is a burden to Alanna anymore, and seems like Im second to Cianna and Travis, that probably isnt the case, BUT you cant help how you feel, RIGHT? =/... fahakjrehajkr. I love my Alanna so much, and I know she loves me back, but, Iono. Im happy with her, its myself Im not happy with. Ive fucked up so many things, and no!!! its not with people that deserve getting fucked over up on!!!! ITS THE PEOPLE I CARE FOR MOST!!!! yea... your prolly thinking... "STFU!!!" but your the one deciding to read this, I warned you before hand its just a Sob story. But on with it. Is it that Im just human? Does everyone go through this? or am I actually alone in this struggle for once? fdjakfjaslk well... Iono. I want things to be good again, I want my dad to come home, I want Alannas sister to come out of the hospital and have her mom and dad have some money, I want things to be peaceful in my house, I want Amous to be done with her shit, I want to think that I havent fucked up on Alanna, I want to feel like I still can do something about all of this(alas, I cannot). (Alanna, Im sorry I didnt tell you all this earlier, I just didnt want to say it infront of Cianna, Ya Know? not like it matters now, shes prollay reading it =/)
Well... in lighter news, uh.. I saw a movie about my great(x infinty)grandpa King Arthur today, and amazingly, they got the story right in the movie!!!! Yes, Im a direct decendant of Arthur!!!(even though theres prollay some incest along the line... Eww!!!) so Im of ROYAL BLOOD BITCHES!!! well... Ill go now... PEACE!!!
~SuffocatedXTragically
Iono, Im just having a hard time right now, sorta have been all day. I dont know why, I was starting to think that all I am is a burden to Alanna anymore, and seems like Im second to Cianna and Travis, that probably isnt the case, BUT you cant help how you feel, RIGHT? =/... fahakjrehajkr. I love my Alanna so much, and I know she loves me back, but, Iono. Im happy with her, its myself Im not happy with. Ive fucked up so many things, and no!!! its not with people that deserve getting fucked over up on!!!! ITS THE PEOPLE I CARE FOR MOST!!!! yea... your prolly thinking... "STFU!!!" but your the one deciding to read this, I warned you before hand its just a Sob story. But on with it. Is it that Im just human? Does everyone go through this? or am I actually alone in this struggle for once? fdjakfjaslk well... Iono. I want things to be good again, I want my dad to come home, I want Alannas sister to come out of the hospital and have her mom and dad have some money, I want things to be peaceful in my house, I want Amous to be done with her shit, I want to think that I havent fucked up on Alanna, I want to feel like I still can do something about all of this(alas, I cannot). (Alanna, Im sorry I didnt tell you all this earlier, I just didnt want to say it infront of Cianna, Ya Know? not like it matters now, shes prollay reading it =/)
Well... in lighter news, uh.. I saw a movie about my great(x infinty)grandpa King Arthur today, and amazingly, they got the story right in the movie!!!! Yes, Im a direct decendant of Arthur!!!(even though theres prollay some incest along the line... Eww!!!) so Im of ROYAL BLOOD BITCHES!!! well... Ill go now... PEACE!!!
~SuffocatedXTragically